Easter is coming....

Easter is coming ...with that comes Candy -- chocolate candy. Chocolate because that is what I buy!!! I used to buy Jelly Beans but I was the only one to eat them!! LOL

So yeah it's almost Easter-- today is in fact Good Friday-- and a little friend of ours went to Planned parenthood to obtain an abortion...all I can hear in my heart for her is "Forgive her Father for she knows NOT what she is doing. " And that the planned abortion is stirring my want for Chocolate candy. I will not indulge...in fact I just had eggs and sausage for lunch - so I am good...

Good Friday-- the day that my Lord Jesus was hung on the cross... Good Friday one of the worst best days of the world. The day that Jesus chose the nails for me - for you - for the little gal at planned parenthood.

So yeahhh here is my Easter post taking a turn far different then what I intended -- I intended to talk about filling eggs for the grand-babies with chocolate candy and instead talking about abortion.
Poor Hope  (what I will call said little Gal.) her boyfriend is a creep - in fact she tells him she is pregnant at 15 (he is 17) and then she catches him on his phone texting another chick to have Sex and if that doesn't work out he will come back to Hope. And that along with her mother has led her to this moment at Planned Parenthood. Coz yeahhhh if you didn't plan it - it shouldn't happen? whats up with that?
So sad that in the season of rebirth - this young woman has chosen death - it is not gonna be fun she is afraid of birthing process-- well didn't PPH tell her she will have to birth the DEAD BABY???

So today Easter is coming and I am praying for this little Gal Hope-  Because while for her Mom this may be easier then raising or helping her daughter to release to a loving family her grandchild.... For young HOPE this is forever. She will forever have this child in her heart and soul.

So say a prayer for HOPE it's ok you don't know her real name GOD dies. and there are so many HOPE's out there today tomorrow and next week .

And if you find an egg with Chocolate in it this weekend - say a prayer for our nation that allows babies to be killed with our tax dollars .

NEWSFLASH ... today April 14th 2017
President Donald J Trump

 Makes HISTORY, Signs Bill That Allows Defunding Of Planned Parenthood

Sadly too late for our little friend HOPE but maybe better for those future HOPES 

Food Shame - Hunger shame

Whats up with food  shame or hunger shame??

Seriously??!! I think as a child being a "chubby" I was shamed about food. OK - I KNOW I was shamed over being hungry after  I was given a meal. (which I may or may not have liked )
I was shamed for being FAT- I was shamed for eating "things" I didn't need. Like cakes, ice cream, cookies and candy even though my skinny brother was allowed to eat these unchecked. So I went to sneaking food. I would steal Cookies from my Grandparents cookie drawer because I wasn't allowed to eat them I would steal that soft white bread out of the drawer because I was stinkin hungry -when at 8 I was put on food restricted diet.(Oh the shame when I was caught!)

I ate all the time To keep from ever being hungry- yet it is meal time and I now have ot eat a meal. So I ate -and ate and ate some more. It is no wonder I weighed 328 # !!
I grew up with food insecurity- I WAS HUNGRY! Not because we didn't have any food tho my mom would insinuate we could go hungry if my dad didn't pay his support check.

So here's the picture -  I am an 8 year old who is hungry from being put on a diet and then told we might not have any money for food. On top of that I was judged for every bite that went into my mouth by my mom ( this went on until 2010 when I finally told my mom my plate my business. ) I have an Aunt who has said whenever I cried as a toddler I was given a piece of bread instead of comforted - So when the sexual abuse started I comforted myself with food- that I would sneak because of the shame - shame to eat shame of the sex.

Ok So Satan - get behind me! I will NOT be shamed anymore. IT is natural to get Hungry- If I am hungry I can eat! If I want something sweet I can eat it. If I want food I can have it.
There is NO shame in eating . Food is not shameful. Food is not my friend .Not my lover. Not my god.


BUT I have a wonderful God who can heal me of this stinkin shame. He is My Warrior Hero!
Excerpts from Psalms 34
Those who look to  Him are radiant- their faces are never covered with shame.
Taste and see that the Lord is good!
The lions may grow weak and hungry- BUT those who seek the Lord lack no good thing
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.
The righteous person may have troubles but the Lord delivers him from them all.

Yes stay tuned as I will be working thru this shame!