too skinny at last...lol

well a funny thing happened the other day... I was asked to be a catalog model for a medical supply catalog at first I was a little insulted because I was thinking they wanted me only coz my white hair - then she send me the details and WHAT? I may not fit the clients profile because i lost weight...ummm say again- yes it is for their Beriatric supplies!!! She thought of me because I was FAT!!! Bahahaha so yeahhh here I am all my glorious self and I may be too skinny!! Who woulda thunk it ...never have I posed fat for pictures!! hahaha you know normally you suck it in I was pushing it all out!! hahaha oh we shall see if I get the job!!

Honesty=Humility

yes it does... and being honest I have to mention my lost abstinence- eating cookies compulsively eating other things like corn bread. I define my abstinence as no compulsive eating and no sugar.

The road was paved with lots of bumps and looking backwards I can see how I was getting off the road and onto the grass - by not being in program materials not making phone calls not getting to meetings now that I can not drive . I could blame my surgery I could blame the holidays but really I can only blame me.

I had choices -- I chose NOT to use my recourse's such as the phone and online meetings my sponsor. NO I decided that I could do this I didn't even consult the Lord before eating nope I just did it myself.

So now it is starting over but it is not like being at the beginning because now I have some knowledge - and knowledge is power - while I am powerless over food I have the power to make good choices to make phone calls to attend meetings either on line on the phone or in person.

I have God - He wants me to succeed.