Count Down to Thanksgiving.....

Well it is Monday Jenni is sleeping in there no school again today-
For me I need to get my lists going for Thursday and that blasted Turkey better be thawing!!
I do love Thanksgiving with family and food and just the warm fuzzies...I get from the bright warm orange colors!! LOL
Scott and the boys will take jens stuff back to her room so we will have use of the dining room...
hopefully she will be back tro school at least 1/2 days... tomorrow and wed.

OHHH and I ordered Photo shop cs3 ! it comes with cs4 free upgrade!! YEA! of course now will come the challenge of learning how to work it!!

I AM SO TIRED>>>>>>>>

oh my goodness thisis like when the babies where little! Up 3 times at night ...yikes... BUT tonight I am sleeping upstairs and Scott is taking the downstairs nursing shift I am gonna push for tonight AND Sat night!! LOL
Scott suggested I have Cher do Thanksgiving but I want to do it....it isn't THAT hard and I like tohe comfort of having it here.,
it isn't comfortable at other peoples houses.,..
ahhh well we have Owens Birthfday party tonight
I am making him a Mickey Mouse cake...
ok off ot get dressed and get Jen up and moving....she can't sleep at night yet lets see she has been asleep now since 5:45 a.m. alomsot 6 hours....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jen's feet

Wow Jenni's surgery it is tough watching her in pain...yesterday she almost passed out from the pain she got white as a sheet ---her face including her lips had NO color in them what so ever it was very scary almost called 911 but she came out of it -
last night it was rough one and today Sunday she has had toe pain and is now sleeping with meds. \

trying not to eat my worry my frustration my anxiety my inability to take her pain away

I got out of the house yesterday for a bit it was nice I miss going to Worship today - but she was supposed to get up and have a wash and hair washing but her pain was too much . I got my 1st place done and some quiet time with God and my book...so bonus

And best of all the sun is out! yeah!

busted by the dietitian....

busted by the dietitian today she so held on tight to what she knew and made me write down the stupid diet coke cake I ate....

me and food do not have the best relationship...ok thats a sentence the fact that I think you can have a relationship with food probably spells out just what the trouble is for me!

ok Lord please help me get past this living to eat and get to the eating to live .......

Mother Daughter conference

Wow what great speakers at the conference wish EVERY mom could hear some of the things we heard.

And the girls to say No to the Bozo --

Mostly that mom's are not to be their daughters Friends... and that is so hard - it does get easier tho as they get older...I feel my oldest Jes and I have a More mom/ friend relationship now-- of course she is out on her own and I am friend when she wants it and mom when she needs it seems like it is more about her wants and needs then my own but I am OK with that -- I got lots of friends it is nice to be on an even keel relationship with her!!! LOL

With Jen right now it is hard because she and I are in thr throes of her growing up years and I can no be her friend but it really makes me sad to see her being friends with other moms out there and I guess the difference is Jes was so anti social I don't remember her doing that where Jen has coaches and such that she gravitates towards. And because she is a great kid and sometimes mature in conversation and thinking they treat her as an equal ..kinda weird but seeing it happen and only getting a small piece of her occasionally well it is hard ..it is sad.. for me -- but I am trusting that because there are times she and I have fun and click ..that as she grows up we too will have a good relationship.

Hard

well this daily diabetic life sucks, I want to eat junk I want cake and candy and cookies...I sound like a 2 year old...
This last week has not been a good one for my eating I got away from writing stuff down and blam eating what I want and not what I need so my bad.,..

Didn't do the 1st place study daily and that's bad too...lets see today's verse I am to have memorized...
By faith Abraham went to a place he didn't know that was to be his inheritance and he went in faith?? obedience ..??? Heb 11 something...
ahhh Heb. 11:8 by faith Abraham when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance ,obeyed and went even though he did not know where he was going.
yeah,.,...
This weeks study is all about God doing the imposable and do I believe God can do the imposable like helping me with my self control ... About how Sarah laughed in the face of God doing the imposable Do we laugh when God wants to do the imposable thru us??
Does God think it is imposable for me to eat right and be healthy?? Nope if He did He wouldn't have led me to this first place Bible study--- So I guess it is time for me to quit laughing in Gods face and humble myself before Him and get help doing what IS imposable for me to do on my own...

Happy Birthday to me....

Owen and Auntie Missy at the party....

Well I am 48 ...and tired!! LOL
We had a surprise party for Susi mom yesterday (she and I share a birthday!) it turned out great.
But today I am so tired... I do not want to go swim but I need to go swim...I am starting to come down with a cold.. yuck....

I did do the Baily photo shoot it turned out great got some good shots for them .

Now we are gearing up to get Jens feet operated on ... So gotta get the house cleaned back up and things organized!

man it is ALWAYS something huh??