found it!

wowzer! When I took Josh and Laurens senior pics back in April? May? I thought I left my nifty 50 lens at the park went thru the whole trauma of going back looking for it being mad at me for leaving it on the pic nic table ect... and last night looking for a tennis ball in the car for molly( yeah we were desperate!! ) I tucked my hand under the seat and low and behold there was the lens it was tucked up under the seat against the black seat track...no way coulda sen it! WOW! I am so blessed to have found it ...now tho I have 2~!! ahhh well...
it makes me happy that I didn't lose it!!

His Word

Have you ever just picked up the bible and held it and had it feel alive? Held it like a shield - like a blanket of Love and protection. Just that feeling of His words living and breathing and comforting .
Opening up to words on a page that are as alive as the heart beating inside your chest - Words that speak deep into your heart your soul and fill you with HIS loving guidance and comfort and wisdom. How the words come alove thru the Holy Spirit and when I see that to me it is like they jump off the page it is like they are all written in bold print and everyone should see the words that are speaking into my heart.
The Bible His Holy words to us Gods love poured out into simple words and phrases that can shape and mold our days our weeks our years our lives.
Bibles sadly laying collecting dust in the corners of peoples torn up empty lives... their hope their future lies in the good news contained between the covers of that dusty old book... if only they would pick it up.

I had a flat tire and my dog ran off in the rain....

I had a flat tire and my dog ran off in the rain....hummm sounds like a country song...but it was my life this morning ...
is it wrong to wish a thunderstorm on your poor dog who ran off to play ? When you know she hates storms...yeah thought so ...sighhh it just didn't start out to be a great day But I am sure once I eat lunch things will improve...I am almost done with this storage closet ...I just need to let go of some "stuff" that I no longer use ... I am so very good at advising others to let it all go just not so good at doing it myself...
ok off to eat lunch keeping my blood sugars on track ...
it makes me a much nicer person...LOL oh yeah and the Dog...miss molly she did come back ...love the smell of wet dog...NOT!

Getting things done

Well getting those closets done ...you know the ones I kinda stuffed stuff into --to get the stuff outta boxes...yeah those closets...
I still have to get the basement storage room done -

struggling with the weight thing walking eating right and the scale after the first 7 pounds not budging...sucks really
makes me just want to eat...and eat big ...but I am not.

my blood sugar has been messed up too so maybe that's playing a part in it...all I know is the scale better get moving the right way or I will pitch it out the door ...seriously I will -

oh well been like a walking fool but gonna have to be if I am gonna do the mini next year...ooops did I really just say that?? yeahhh well I am .. who needs big toe nails...
ok thats all I know for now

out of sorts

I feel out of sorts today but not out of my mind sooo that's good right?
I am not sure why I am out of sorts but have felt this way for a few days...a few weeks ... maybe because I am not turning to food ...maybe because we are doing a spiritual warfare series at church... maybe because as a mom I am still adjusting to the kidlessness of this new life - Jen is still a kid but less kid like everyday.
and how do I complain? I have such an awesome life an awesome hubby an awesome house... and great friends ...tho maybe it is because my friends seem to be moving on to other places ..it is another one of those shifts in life ... in friendships... moving has put me out of sorts it seems ...no neighbor friends...the family thing is still not resolved and soon the fall and winter holidays will be upon us... what I FEEL like is I have no soft place to land...I KNOW that is not truth ...FAITH FACTS FEELINGS... hummm gotta remember that...

pictues

Photos for the Millers... not so bad considering I had this sinus headache going on...

Women of Faith

Went to the WOF... and it was good...not great but good...and I think for me the not great part was probably that I am in such a different place then ever in my life. I am no longer in counseling life is hard sometimes but good ...so a lot of what was being talked on was not my issue ...now I am not saying
I don't have issues and there was a couple things that were convicting for sure and I will be taking those things out and un packing them ...but over all it was well different .

In a different time or place in my life I woulda been moved shaken stirred ...but this time not so much. had a good time tho ...just didn't come back all refreshed and jazzed not a mountain top thing...

my kids were all here today for the boys birthdays ...it kinda breaks my heart that our table is so different so stiff now it isn't the same easy thing of fun and laughter that it used to be when it was just us it is different hard Morgan and Lauren and Eric haven't meshed themselves into our fabric of family so there's just awkwardness that I hate ...will it always be this way? I hope not some days I want my babies back I want to call a do over and maybe we wouldn't be in this place now ...but then I guess it could be worse ..so I will keep what I got -and make the best of it -

cleaning

Finally cleaning and straightning the scrapbooking room closet ...all the things I kinda dumped there coz I had no place eles to put them...

I still have no place but thats ok if it isn't something I REALLY need then out it goes !

I gotta take my own organizing advice ...LOL

of course the first box I pull out has 2 spiders in it yuckkkkk
enough to make me give up and call it a day! BUT I didn't I persivered and now I have emptied a big box! yay me!