arrrggghhhhh

those are my feelings and frustrations about putting up the Christmas decorations!!
I don't know where to put anything and the walls have that stupid finish so can't really hang things and lost a book case .... ok ok I just need to do it get it all out and figure it out!!
Stop complaining right???!!!
I want this to all look like Christmas and not sure that it is gonna happen I guess I need to just let it go and build again for this house ...get rid of the stuff I know I am not gonna use and buy for this house...
tomorrow is Dec 1st I better just get 'er done!!!

Mini 2007

The mini from my point of view...

Well I did it - I walked the mini all 13.1 miles ++ the ++ is of course the 28 min of walking it took to actually START the race...back in coral Z. yeah baby....

1 I did get to see an elite runner...well it was the wheel chair winner guy who was on his way back as we crossed what for us was 11/2 miles was for him mile 12....of course never saw a Kenyan..heck he was back home before I got to mile 5 ...LOL)

2. it was nice to see support from all the bands -to the kids -to even the elephants at the Zoo were waving us on...of course they are very smart animals those elephants ...notice -they were waving us on and not walking .,,,,

3. Odd things I saw were of course the Ronald Mc Donald guy being chased by the Hamburgeler ...there was Timmon from the Lion King , there was the Kentucky Colonel back from the dead... the colts blue guy .. got water from a princess , saw a young Darth vader there -- I herd so many cow bells ringing I almost mooed and there was the fire guy who was dressed in full gear of course everyone was like WOW - meanwhile I was thinking hey HE has an oxygen tank...carry an extra 100 pounds on city air only...

4. I did have to walk a lot by myself but God was good Just as I needed it there were class members who caught up to me and encouraged me on - it was awesome! Go Bricks to Bricks team spirit!! They even offered to get me back up if I wanted to get down and kiss the bricks...(at that point I am thinking it would have taken 10 men and a strong horse... uhh no thanks!!! LOL )


5. the track was great ..it was great to walk it - you know I am pretty sure tho for us ADHD'ers that 1/4 mile around woulda been just fine ...BUT what was even BETTER was the flushie toilets and no waiting ! Wow who knew after 7 water / Gatorade stops I would REALLY have to go!!!

6. I couldn't remember the song from the last night at training SO at mile 10 I wasn't sure was I supposed to pick up my feet and God put them down or visa versa......didn't really matter I basically Told the Lord he was gonna have to pick them up AND put them down .....


7. I did get a phone call on the mini I thought it was my son so I answered with "I am at the 12 mile marker...." the lady says uhhh I think I have the wrong number...I said well I am at the 12 mile marker tell me I am doing good....She laughs and says oh you must be at THAT mini thing...Then she says 12 miles your doing good! I said ok thanks have a nice day! and hung up... Wasn't that cool of God to send me a phone angel!!!

8. I did see a guy I swim with..he is 80 years old and of course 1/2 mile in front of me geesh,,,,( it's ok I can lap him in swimming!! uhh did I mention he was 80??)

9 people did like the shirt ( the first shall be last and the last shall be first) of course these people were all passing me....hummmm maybe they didn't get it....LOL

10. I told my husband I didn't really see anyone I knew,,,except the swimmer guy ,,,,and that is odd most people always remember me (I don't know WHY...!) Then I realized the people I hang with think this stuff is CRAZY!!

11.my feet Oh my feet -- my blisters have blisters honestly I got blisters big enough to have their own zip codes...OUCH!

12. the temptation .... first of there was all those lovely golf carts with equally lovely people driving them around I am thinking Satan get behind me...I kept walking on and ignored them then --I thought at one point hey I can fake a heart attack I bet that ambulance has A.C. BUT...my pride kept me away from taking any rides...then I saw some guy take off down some rail road tracks it wasn't a BIG short cut but it was one -again another big temptation...but my blisters prevented me from taking THAT route...See how God works....LOL

13 The finish ahh the big finish it seemed like it took FOR-EVER to get to that finish line... all I wanted to do was drop... but had to de-chip and get water and trick or treat the apples bananas cookies..(WHO thinks of this stuff?
. then they want to take your picture..( I am thinking this is not gonna be called a glammer shot!) . then it was off to find the tent...helloooo anyone seen that KLA tent?? Anyone ??

14. good things... I never saw the people sweepers (whoo glad of that!) I didn't have to use my rock.(YES I carried the rock 13.1 miles ) the people were all very nice! All those people and not one meanie in the bunch WOW! Maybe I can find some new friends in this bunch.

And I got that medal yup I have carried it with me for 2 days now ... it is pretty cool to know I did it..

My one Question to Ken is who did he make mad that the tent is all the way back to the 12 mile marker hummm??? Next year I want to be on Team First Aid they got a front line spot...

.................next year ----did I say next year???????

I have finished the race, I have kept the faith
Kim Shepherd

hummm now I know....

Now I know I have lost my mind I just registered for the Mini for 2010...yeah who knew I would EVER walk it again after the last time. I do know that in the next week I am going to get fitted for shoes not making THAT mistake again!!
Sooo with that I better get walking beofre training REALLY begins!!
Is it wrong to train for the training??? LOL

all the reasons I didn't ever want to do it again still probably stand ...but What the heck love the challenge.

oh my gosh seriously what have I done??? LOL

Thinking

I was thinking I need to do my 100 things again since I started this a few years ago maybe things have changed..maybe I have changed...no that's sill of course I have changed!!


my life is so much saner ... I am so much saner. is saner ever a word? I mean if you can be insane then surly you can be saner...
LOL

The holidays are coming ...maybe saner is not a good thing around the craziness of family-- Mt sisters hubby has decided he is done with the marriage ...I guess he has been tossing this around in his head for a few months and now well last week he decided to act on it - yesterday was Owens 5th birthday...happy birthday to him I know there is never a good time to break off a marriage but seriously right NOW? I want to thump Brad in the head...but maybe it will be better for the bigger boys since Brad didn't always treat them fairly .

heres how i feel about divorce,...and step dads...

My Step-Monster
Pain anger and hurt are racing through my head
As the memories of you fill me with dread
The yelling and the torture that you put us through
Does it ever bother you?
You were larger than life at the end of a bad day.
A little, little man who had to have his way
Did I salt the potatoes? Did I hang your shirts up right?
Was the sweeper run correctly? If not there was a fight
You hit with your fists, but your words hurt just as bad
We could always tell by the air if you were coming in mad
Hide – make me smaller trying to keep out of your sight
Listening and wondering if it was time to take flight
Out of the room or out of executive control
Out – just get out – anyway I could go
My mom just stood by and let you make me your prey
My mom just stood by and I was the one to pay
To pay the price of your anger, the price of your rage
The damage you did I am just beginning to gage
You were a bully of women and children of that I am sure
I know I will get past you – of you I will be cured
Be gone little man – get out of my head
Good bye little man of you I have no more dread.~~~
KS©2009

His Lost Children

Look! Look at His children what do you discover?
The broken bruised hearts of His children trying to recover
Those lost and alone in a world grown cold
To the suffering of His children so young – but old
Their clothes are brand new it’s their hearts that are torn
Shredded by the neglect to which they were born
Jesus is crying great woeful tears of deep sorrow
Jesus is saddened by the view of tomorrow
A world in which His children are tossed to the side
No one even caring how the divorces divide
Children – His children the love of His heart
Look how our world is tearing them apart
Babies – sweet babies born into drugs and booze
Little children left alone – so each other they abuse
Parents supposedly the guardians strong and secure
Have abandoned His little children once so pure
Now look at His children they crawl on bent knees
Looking to their heavenly Father to set them free
The extreme shame and pain that feeds their cries
Look! Look at His children their pain is ours alone
Look at His children for whose anguish we have yet to atone
KS 2009 ©

surrender......

hummm we sang a song that said I surrender all to you Lord...
and ...well i am thinking that ain't true for me not this week
I want to stomop myfeet throw a chair and yell WHY IS THIS SO FREAKIN HARD....
but really is it so hard? Or is it I am just not doing what I know to do.
there is a verse about that doing what you know is wrong and that is sin...

and I hear ole Pastor Dave sayin in my head Kim where is your focus?? IS it on Jesus?? and there ya have the answer...
it ain't hard at all...

tomorrow

why is it we always say we will wait till tomorrow -- rather it is to lose weight or say what we feel or don't feel if it is to do the things we hate to do or even the things we love tomorrow seems like it will always be there. And sometimes tomorrow never comes ...sometimes it is death but mostly becasue tomorrow is always on the horizion and in the morning when you wake up it is today not tomorrow ...so tomorrow never arrives which means we never say what we wanted to say do what we wanted to do or lose what we wanted to lose or gain what we wanted to gain in this life-

So I say lets do it today lets do it right now lets not wait till tomorrow because as the song goes....tomorrow is always just a day away!

Wow

it has been forever since I was on here -- shocking!!
Well today is my Birthday whoo hoo it has been a nice day
had lunch with my friend Shari then went and got a massage...now killing time till it is time for Gray Brothers...yummm

October and September has been a rocky month trying to find out what was / is causing this stomach problem the good news is they didn't find anything the bad news is ...they didn't find anything...

I started the implant process... got a bone graft and tooth pulled in a month or so I will get the titanium rods... sounds most unpleasant!!!

trying to not get wiggy about the upcoming holidays... with this junk with my brother - they still haven't contacted us to talk about what has gone on ...soooo the ban on him still stands it causes me anxiety and I just gotta keep letting it go -

The ball is in his court - he needs to do what he needs to do - me I gotta keep leaning on Jesus --

Jes is engaged wow really exciting -- she and I are going to be getting together for wedding plans this Thursday!

And I am going to start my training for the Mini - yup I am going to walk it again... only this time be trained and ready --

ok well thats all I know for now -