wow have to do something today that I really do not want to do.
And not sure how to get out of the "ceremony" part of it.
I am praying the Lords protection on me while I am there. And tonight I will pray when I leave there.
Yesterday I got into a conversation with a guy from HS about Jesus he is all into the world religions thing and we should all just get along and there is no Absolute authority uhhh wrong ....LOL I did not get heated in my discussion kept a clear head just did not agree with his views and kept standing on the word of God and Jesus ...well this morning when I got up there was a response from him about hoping to open closed minds and then when i got into facebook i couldn't find him he deleted his account....guess that means he wont be coming to the reunion...huh??
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
facebook fun....
Been having some fun on FACEBOOK,...
found old high school friends I say old coz we are celebrating our 30th HS reunion...WOW! and yesterday Found an old friend she was my BEST friend in 8th grade- Judy -- we had the best times ! We used to laugh and laugh oh my gosh ...can't think of many people in my life who I had as much fun with!
And keeping in touch with new friends and current friends.
I think it is funny that Jenni will not make me her friend... I think she feels it is intrusive, Oh well...
Ok well thats all for now...
found old high school friends I say old coz we are celebrating our 30th HS reunion...WOW! and yesterday Found an old friend she was my BEST friend in 8th grade- Judy -- we had the best times ! We used to laugh and laugh oh my gosh ...can't think of many people in my life who I had as much fun with!
And keeping in touch with new friends and current friends.
I think it is funny that Jenni will not make me her friend... I think she feels it is intrusive, Oh well...
Ok well thats all for now...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
WOW
I have heard some things and it makes me sad-
Things are not always what they seem. ... peoples marriages are only as real as they show them to be.
Because someone sits at a sound board every Sunday in Church doesn't make them a fine upstanding Christian... it maybe makes them a good sound board operator,
my "sister" is broken hearted. But she will get the help she needs to heal her heart- She has told me she will go to a church by where she lives this Sunday -- I am praying there will be a pastor there who can counsel her and help her understand it is HIS problem not her...not her .
As for my brother-- I do not know - my husband has issued a no contact order to him and me I am fine with that.
Things are not always what they seem. ... peoples marriages are only as real as they show them to be.
Because someone sits at a sound board every Sunday in Church doesn't make them a fine upstanding Christian... it maybe makes them a good sound board operator,
my "sister" is broken hearted. But she will get the help she needs to heal her heart- She has told me she will go to a church by where she lives this Sunday -- I am praying there will be a pastor there who can counsel her and help her understand it is HIS problem not her...not her .
As for my brother-- I do not know - my husband has issued a no contact order to him and me I am fine with that.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
faith facts feelings
I know faith facts feelings is how I am to base my life...not lead with the feelings thing ...but that is so hard. right now my feelings are shook up stomped on and broken - . I feel like all that I have done these last 10 years is for naught . my boys are living worldly lives so what was / is the point.
I have done well in the weight loss but this last week I have slid backwards not giving into the feelings and eating them
Jeremy moving out so abruptly was like ripping my heart in two- yet it was fast ...Josh on the other hand is like slowly bleeding to death he is just this side of respectful yet I feel like he is already gone mentally emotionally he is gone. And that hurts.
this is February... little over 3 more months of this...
I know it is hard for him with his brother gone --
my head is full of thoughts that can't be spoken -- just keep renouncing those thoughts... it is a spiritual battle being played out here as well as the daily one.
I know I will get thru this ............
I have done well in the weight loss but this last week I have slid backwards not giving into the feelings and eating them
Jeremy moving out so abruptly was like ripping my heart in two- yet it was fast ...Josh on the other hand is like slowly bleeding to death he is just this side of respectful yet I feel like he is already gone mentally emotionally he is gone. And that hurts.
this is February... little over 3 more months of this...
I know it is hard for him with his brother gone --
my head is full of thoughts that can't be spoken -- just keep renouncing those thoughts... it is a spiritual battle being played out here as well as the daily one.
I know I will get thru this ............
Monday, February 16, 2009
happy middle of february...
well here we are the middle of Feb. and the Girl Scout cookies have me surrounded and I have given them a foot hold YIKES!
My attitude has really sucked these last few days about eating... about life and I am done with giving in to THAT! No more say I!
I am so Blessed and it is time I started living like it.
My boys ..well they want to live like the world I guess I can do nothing to stop them .
"...do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.... Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good." Romans 12:2, 9
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world -- the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life -- is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever." 1 John 2:15-17
"Jesus answered, 'My kingdom is not of this world. If My kingdom were of this world, My servants would fight, so that I should not be delivered to the Jews; but now My kingdom is not from here." John 18:36
"If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you." John 15:19-20
"Friendship with the world is enmity to God." James 4:4
"Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; who put darkness for light, and light for darkness.... Woe to those who are wise in their own eyes, and prudent in their own sight!" Isaiah 5:20-21
"Do not be deceived: 'Evil company corrupts good habits.' Awake to righteousness, and do not sin...." 1 Corinthians 15:33-34
"My son, if sinners entice you, do not consent." Proverbs 1:10
I guess the last one says it all... But they are consenting ...so there ya have it.
Did I do wrong things growing up --you betcha....was I raised in a Godly home nope not at all. Did I know the difference between right and wrong ..yes but not the eternal consequences....do my kids know yes they do but this world calls them.
So My prayer is for them to change. Coz me I am not going to I will stand with the Lord .
of course now I will get off my soap box and examine my own life and see what places I am letting the world in ...like TV shows and movies... uhhh yeah... ok....
My attitude has really sucked these last few days about eating... about life and I am done with giving in to THAT! No more say I!
I am so Blessed and it is time I started living like it.
My boys ..well they want to live like the world I guess I can do nothing to stop them .
"...do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.... Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good." Romans 12:2, 9
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world -- the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life -- is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever." 1 John 2:15-17
"Jesus answered, 'My kingdom is not of this world. If My kingdom were of this world, My servants would fight, so that I should not be delivered to the Jews; but now My kingdom is not from here." John 18:36
"If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you." John 15:19-20
"Friendship with the world is enmity to God." James 4:4
"Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; who put darkness for light, and light for darkness.... Woe to those who are wise in their own eyes, and prudent in their own sight!" Isaiah 5:20-21
"Do not be deceived: 'Evil company corrupts good habits.' Awake to righteousness, and do not sin...." 1 Corinthians 15:33-34
"My son, if sinners entice you, do not consent." Proverbs 1:10
I guess the last one says it all... But they are consenting ...so there ya have it.
Did I do wrong things growing up --you betcha....was I raised in a Godly home nope not at all. Did I know the difference between right and wrong ..yes but not the eternal consequences....do my kids know yes they do but this world calls them.
So My prayer is for them to change. Coz me I am not going to I will stand with the Lord .
of course now I will get off my soap box and examine my own life and see what places I am letting the world in ...like TV shows and movies... uhhh yeah... ok....
Saturday, February 07, 2009
stuff....
My heart is settling down the sadness has lessened..a bit -still missing him - that Jeremy - it is hard when you can see the mistakes but can not change them for them. They-- our children make their own mistakes and have to then live with the consequences of them just as we all do.
Josh's girl friend seems to be mad at us- for grounding Josh and ruining her senior year..uh he was only grounded a minute and frankly I don't care . We all do what we have to do - they did wrong . Her parents did nothing -we once again among the teens look like the meanie butts...once again I don't care .
Me I am just taking it one day at a time - All of this is so nuts.
things I am glad of -
that my Jesus stays the same yesterday today and tomorrow
that Jes seems to be on an even keel - poor as a mouse but back in church thats good!
that our Pastor - Dan is a Strong spiritual warrior -
that we have found a church home at Center
that Jen is doing good feet are healing grades are good ,rebellion is in check...
that Scott and I are doing good thru this storm - we are taking care of us..
Josh's girl friend seems to be mad at us- for grounding Josh and ruining her senior year..uh he was only grounded a minute and frankly I don't care . We all do what we have to do - they did wrong . Her parents did nothing -we once again among the teens look like the meanie butts...once again I don't care .
Me I am just taking it one day at a time - All of this is so nuts.
things I am glad of -
that my Jesus stays the same yesterday today and tomorrow
that Jes seems to be on an even keel - poor as a mouse but back in church thats good!
that our Pastor - Dan is a Strong spiritual warrior -
that we have found a church home at Center
that Jen is doing good feet are healing grades are good ,rebellion is in check...
that Scott and I are doing good thru this storm - we are taking care of us..
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
My 25 Random things....from Facebook
1. all my car accidents that have been MY fault have happened in my own driveway...and yes there have been a lot - moral to this is -don't park behind me!
2. I am a youngest child middle child and 2nd out of 5 ...depending on which of my Dads marriages you look at..So I am thinking that whole birth order thing...not so accurate...
3. I once was Blind but now I see....LOL I had vision correction surgery...also I have Jesus ...with the correction surgery alone I would still be blind...
4. I love comedians...love to watch Christian Comedians wishing there were more of them..LOL but my fav all time is Bill Cosby...he makes me laugh
5. I love all the seasons..each one is my favorite until it gets extreme Winter love the snow hate the cold and ice -- Spring love the freshness budding everything..hate the rain ...Summer love the sun and brightness hate the heat and humidity ---Fall love the cool air and leaves hate the bees....
6. I love worship music and wish I could sing! Not professionally just regularly!! LOL However I do sing in the car with the music up reallll loud!
7. I always wanted to be able to play the drums and pound I mean play the piano...LOL not soft little piano music things but loud pounding music things..
8. I spent the night in ER for heart issue and took a cab home...my family was out of town and seriously I just wanted to go home all was well...and who ya gonna wake up at 5:30 a.m.??.it was weird!
9. I went into Atrel fib and while my heart beat like a thundering horse I thought it was so funny that at a catholic hospital they kept coming in and asking "have you converted yet?" I told them over and over no I am still a Methodist...It took the nurse a few minutes but she finally got it...LOL - I came in a Methodist I am leaving a Methodist
10. I have had some extreme weather issues that make for VERY funny story's... from tornado's to mud to crazy rain...people no longer like to go camping with me...LOL
11. I used to be a very fast driver now not so much...but I still like speed...LOL
12. I walked the mini marathon last year -- I didn't finish last in fact I never even saw the sweeper people!
13. I used to listen to Alice Cooper yup had every album...could sing all the words...and wore black nail polish before it was ok to wear it!
14. I used to be the president -vice president and main committee member of every group or club I was involved in....But not all at the same time. ..LOL
15 I am a life time girl scout but no longer like the things they stand for or the direction they are going.... - I may revoke my own life time standing....LOL
16. God has Blessed me with very -VERY let me say it again VERY- good friends!
Which isn't so random but very deliberate on God's part.
17. I am one of the few people who doesn't like the book "The Shack" I have read thousands and thousands of books and have not finished very few...but I couldn't finish this one.
18. In my life time I think I have gained and lost more weight then all four of my children's weight now put together
19. I love to take pictures ... and sometimes I am very good at it --my new name is Momma paparazzi
20. I am a horrible speller so bad in fact that sometimes my spell check can not even figure out what it is I am trying to spell. I am always typing to as ot and apparently that is ok on the word perfect spell check !
21. it is harder for me to come up with 25 RANDOM things about myself then I thought! Who knew!
22. I would love to travel a bit ...like to Ireland - go back to Italy ...Scotland to stay in a castle - to the East coast and stay in a beach house - Go to Alaska - And when I go I want a Cannon 5D with some prime lenses.....yeah ...that would be sweet!
23. I HATE baking cookies I have cookie ADHD...I am good for the first tray then I am OVER it lets dump the whole bowl of dough and turn the oven up on high ...who can wait on 6 dozen cookies one tray at a time sheesh move on people....LOL
24. The last time I was on a water slide (2004?) I started to scream before we even left the top...it was kinda embarrassing actually totally scared the life guard girl...!! My water slide fear is I am going to fall out the top if the slide is not enclosed...
25. I love to scrapbook and in 5 years have completed 28 books for my kids and a couple for family one for Girl scouts and one for my hubby.but have YET to do one for ME! ...
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2. I am a youngest child middle child and 2nd out of 5 ...depending on which of my Dads marriages you look at..So I am thinking that whole birth order thing...not so accurate...
3. I once was Blind but now I see....LOL I had vision correction surgery...also I have Jesus ...with the correction surgery alone I would still be blind...
4. I love comedians...love to watch Christian Comedians wishing there were more of them..LOL but my fav all time is Bill Cosby...he makes me laugh
5. I love all the seasons..each one is my favorite until it gets extreme Winter love the snow hate the cold and ice -- Spring love the freshness budding everything..hate the rain ...Summer love the sun and brightness hate the heat and humidity ---Fall love the cool air and leaves hate the bees....
6. I love worship music and wish I could sing! Not professionally just regularly!! LOL However I do sing in the car with the music up reallll loud!
7. I always wanted to be able to play the drums and pound I mean play the piano...LOL not soft little piano music things but loud pounding music things..
8. I spent the night in ER for heart issue and took a cab home...my family was out of town and seriously I just wanted to go home all was well...and who ya gonna wake up at 5:30 a.m.??.it was weird!
9. I went into Atrel fib and while my heart beat like a thundering horse I thought it was so funny that at a catholic hospital they kept coming in and asking "have you converted yet?" I told them over and over no I am still a Methodist...It took the nurse a few minutes but she finally got it...LOL - I came in a Methodist I am leaving a Methodist
10. I have had some extreme weather issues that make for VERY funny story's... from tornado's to mud to crazy rain...people no longer like to go camping with me...LOL
11. I used to be a very fast driver now not so much...but I still like speed...LOL
12. I walked the mini marathon last year -- I didn't finish last in fact I never even saw the sweeper people!
13. I used to listen to Alice Cooper yup had every album...could sing all the words...and wore black nail polish before it was ok to wear it!
14. I used to be the president -vice president and main committee member of every group or club I was involved in....But not all at the same time. ..LOL
15 I am a life time girl scout but no longer like the things they stand for or the direction they are going.... - I may revoke my own life time standing....LOL
16. God has Blessed me with very -VERY let me say it again VERY- good friends!
Which isn't so random but very deliberate on God's part.
17. I am one of the few people who doesn't like the book "The Shack" I have read thousands and thousands of books and have not finished very few...but I couldn't finish this one.
18. In my life time I think I have gained and lost more weight then all four of my children's weight now put together
19. I love to take pictures ... and sometimes I am very good at it --my new name is Momma paparazzi
20. I am a horrible speller so bad in fact that sometimes my spell check can not even figure out what it is I am trying to spell. I am always typing to as ot and apparently that is ok on the word perfect spell check !
21. it is harder for me to come up with 25 RANDOM things about myself then I thought! Who knew!
22. I would love to travel a bit ...like to Ireland - go back to Italy ...Scotland to stay in a castle - to the East coast and stay in a beach house - Go to Alaska - And when I go I want a Cannon 5D with some prime lenses.....yeah ...that would be sweet!
23. I HATE baking cookies I have cookie ADHD...I am good for the first tray then I am OVER it lets dump the whole bowl of dough and turn the oven up on high ...who can wait on 6 dozen cookies one tray at a time sheesh move on people....LOL
24. The last time I was on a water slide (2004?) I started to scream before we even left the top...it was kinda embarrassing actually totally scared the life guard girl...!! My water slide fear is I am going to fall out the top if the slide is not enclosed...
25. I love to scrapbook and in 5 years have completed 28 books for my kids and a couple for family one for Girl scouts and one for my hubby.but have YET to do one for ME! ...
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