thought Jesus was coming - seriously went out listened for the trumpets ....
no trumpets no Jesus on the clouds just orange fire sky....
back to work Christians ...
Monday, June 09, 2008
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
thoughts
well after swimming 53 miles I got a swim lesson today I told the life guard I won't probably ever learn Spanish and I grew up as a swim rat and I have never been able to do the water breathing/not breathing thing as a swimmer always had to hold my nose to go under once under I am good to go it is just getting there ... and the swimming across I keep my head up outta the water not so efficient ...
well today I started it I still can't quite do both as in swim and keep the breathing in and not not breathing in 1/2 the pool! ...but hey I did do it a few times and I didn't die whooo hooo!
well today I started it I still can't quite do both as in swim and keep the breathing in and not not breathing in 1/2 the pool! ...but hey I did do it a few times and I didn't die whooo hooo!
the sky is dark and cloudy and my brain is too
my heart is full of cloudy gloomy rumblings
I feel moody and dark and want to live in an old Victorian house above the crashing sea..with 10 cats (keeping in mind that I don't particularly even LIKE cats!) and a wood burning fireplace and books to read and chocolate cake to eat . nobody comes except the grocer boy to bring mail and supplies...of course I would get no mail coz I would be that crazy lady up on the cliffs in the old Victorian mansion
been typing some lessons some teachings and such and not getting some of the principles . like life doesn't revolve around me well duh and why not?? LOL I do love Jesus life revolves around Jesus and I don't get in that ever so practical way HOW I am not supposed to get involved emotionally in life when life involves my emotions...where do you draw the line at it isn't your fault? And admit when it is?
unaltered life can be so confusing... good but confusing...are you confused yet?
Monday, June 02, 2008
June 2, 08 ~ lovin Jesus
Can I just say here that I love Jesus??
Seriously ...He is awesome and the grace and the love that He shows us His compassion and mercy is tremendous...
typing up some notes and well all I can say is wow thank you Jesus.
I see the world and it's craziness
I sometimes join in I must confess
my heart grieves for the things I do & see
My soul yearns for the day it will be free
away from this world full of darkness and sin
the day my soul joins with Jesus is the day true life begins!
Seriously ...He is awesome and the grace and the love that He shows us His compassion and mercy is tremendous...
typing up some notes and well all I can say is wow thank you Jesus.
I see the world and it's craziness
I sometimes join in I must confess
my heart grieves for the things I do & see
My soul yearns for the day it will be free
away from this world full of darkness and sin
the day my soul joins with Jesus is the day true life begins!
Friday, May 30, 2008
it's not right to be not right...
Jenni - Lauren -Anna -Alex -(kindergarten play )it's not right to be not right...
that would have had a whole different meaning to me 5 years ago... out of pride I ALWAYS wanted to be right (and hey I usually was ...LOL) now tho it is about being right with God-- with Jesus Christ my Savior and Redeemer - this world thinks so totally different about stuff. do what you want do what feels good live for the now ... you are your own inner light bla bla bla sometimes I think we have tumbled into the Land of OZ only to find Oprah behind the curtain. of course being a mom is like being in OZ most days all in the same day I am the wicked witch enforcing the rules - the good witch who makes everything right when it is all going wrong -the scare crow who needs a brain coz everyone knows we parents know nothing -the cowardly lion afraid to face whats next the tin man who needs a heart surly anyone with a heart knows that boyfriends should spend 24/7 with the girl friends... and Dorothy who just wants to tap her heels and go home where there is warm cookies and cold milk she didn't have to get for herself. and an Auntie Em to wash the plate and cup...
being right with the Lord...ahhh now that is golden.. the emerald city all shiny and at it's best - it is that great big lolly pop from the lolly pop kids.. it is Cotton candy flowers and chocolate rivers... humm now it is sounding more like willy wonka... anyway
God is God and I am not...could be my first tattoo...
I may be going to School ... but I haven't checked with the Lord if that's what He is thinking... after my being off course I am thinking I better sit back on course for a min before seeking His wisdom on it., BUT make no mistakes it will be HIS wisdom I seek before I jump I still don't feel like He would bless anything I would do right this min with so much still left to wrap up ..
typing and such..
and here's a random thing I miss my poetry-- Lord could I have that one back?? maybe without the pain?
I need to find that ONE thing I do well and explore doing it.
Oz.the land of OZ where things are not always as they seem. ...watch out for the peddler guy with all his wears in the back of his wagon to distract you and watch out for those those evil flying monkeys......
that would have had a whole different meaning to me 5 years ago... out of pride I ALWAYS wanted to be right (and hey I usually was ...LOL) now tho it is about being right with God-- with Jesus Christ my Savior and Redeemer - this world thinks so totally different about stuff. do what you want do what feels good live for the now ... you are your own inner light bla bla bla sometimes I think we have tumbled into the Land of OZ only to find Oprah behind the curtain. of course being a mom is like being in OZ most days all in the same day I am the wicked witch enforcing the rules - the good witch who makes everything right when it is all going wrong -the scare crow who needs a brain coz everyone knows we parents know nothing -the cowardly lion afraid to face whats next the tin man who needs a heart surly anyone with a heart knows that boyfriends should spend 24/7 with the girl friends... and Dorothy who just wants to tap her heels and go home where there is warm cookies and cold milk she didn't have to get for herself. and an Auntie Em to wash the plate and cup...
being right with the Lord...ahhh now that is golden.. the emerald city all shiny and at it's best - it is that great big lolly pop from the lolly pop kids.. it is Cotton candy flowers and chocolate rivers... humm now it is sounding more like willy wonka... anyway
God is God and I am not...could be my first tattoo...
I may be going to School ... but I haven't checked with the Lord if that's what He is thinking... after my being off course I am thinking I better sit back on course for a min before seeking His wisdom on it., BUT make no mistakes it will be HIS wisdom I seek before I jump I still don't feel like He would bless anything I would do right this min with so much still left to wrap up ..
typing and such..
and here's a random thing I miss my poetry-- Lord could I have that one back?? maybe without the pain?
I need to find that ONE thing I do well and explore doing it.
Oz.the land of OZ where things are not always as they seem. ...watch out for the peddler guy with all his wears in the back of his wagon to distract you and watch out for those those evil flying monkeys......
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
wedding pics...
the bride takes the groom is the name of the first one...LOL
and then watch for the ringbearer sound asleep...LOL
and then watch for the ringbearer sound asleep...LOL
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Wow
on Thursday my baby girl graduates 8th grade... pretty darn exciting! And sad... lets see besides being busy with all the stuff for graduation I was the main photographer at Chrissys wedding - I will post some of those pics .
I am worn out. It has been a whorl wind month starting with the mini and ending with graduations.. class trip and wedding in the middle. It is a wonder I still have my sanity left...uh I do have it I am just not sure where I have placed it!!
Tomorrow is the cougar walk - we walk to Garfield park then ater that I have girls coming back to the house until time to get nails done -then Thursday is 1/2 day and the 8th graders all go out to lunch then I have girls coming here to do hair and make up - Thursday night is graduation -Jenni is Valdedictorian and Fri is her last day at Emmaus-- we have been there 18 years! (Jes started at age 3 ) There is going ot be a video at graduation which is gonna make us all cry... Jenni wont let me read her speach - I think I am gonna need lots of prayers to make it thru!
I am worn out. It has been a whorl wind month starting with the mini and ending with graduations.. class trip and wedding in the middle. It is a wonder I still have my sanity left...uh I do have it I am just not sure where I have placed it!!
Tomorrow is the cougar walk - we walk to Garfield park then ater that I have girls coming back to the house until time to get nails done -then Thursday is 1/2 day and the 8th graders all go out to lunch then I have girls coming here to do hair and make up - Thursday night is graduation -Jenni is Valdedictorian and Fri is her last day at Emmaus-- we have been there 18 years! (Jes started at age 3 ) There is going ot be a video at graduation which is gonna make us all cry... Jenni wont let me read her speach - I think I am gonna need lots of prayers to make it thru!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Friday, May 02, 2008
the night before the race.,,,,
Keep your eyes on the Prize....
there it is folks the real reason to walk 13.1 miles...
I am excited ...I am terrified.... I want to say forget it ...I want to say get outta my way ....
Today I am getting everything for the weekend ready food...clothes ... epson salt... advil and ... a heavy arsonal of prayer!!
I am off to go swim at least a 1/2 mile
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
things I have learned in Bricks to Bricks training and the 10 miler
things I have learned in Bricks to Bricks training and the 10 miler
1 P.M.A. (positive mental attitude) totally beats C.M.A. (crappy mental attitide) but someday's...CMA prevails....
2. I walked the last mile and 1/2 of the 10 miler by myself...it wasn't fun in fact I thought I was in social purgatory. I sang Jesus Loves me and Father Abraham and the St Francis guy on the bike kept circling me .....BUT Ken tells us this is a social event I figure with 35,000 people I can find Someone to talk to those last 2-3 miles...
3. forget laying everything out the night before I am awake and excited at 5:30 a.m. I need to worry about AFTER the race...and lay out my jammies so I don't have to move much once I get home. ok it is because I won't be moving much once I get home
4. I am getting a shirt made that says: the first shall be last and the last shall be first! this way chip time doesn't really matter now does it...haha
5. if I have to start in corral Z and walk 30 min to starting gate...then I want extra credit for the 13.6 + miles...HEY Mr Kenyan start at the back of the pack and win...
6. I have learned big words like pronation and planter fasciitis , that I will never again use in everyday life
7. I learned that getting fit by the "shoe guys" don't mean your shoes fit ( as I found out at mile 5 of the 10 miler)
8. at mile 9 on the 10 miler I found out stealing a rock from someone's yard and confessing to the cop -will NOT get you a ride in the nice shiny comfy police car...maybe I shoulda beaned him on the head with it...I will carry my emergency free ride rock with me on the mini....
10. I learned that someone has made towels and sucked the life outta them to make them dehydrated so we can pour water on them and re hydrate them to use them....why?
11. I learned I really do not like lime gatorade... no body does that is why it is free at the mini...I bet the first 5 Kenyans get the good stuff...who would know??
12. I have learned that no one expects anyone sized over a 2x to walk this race...hummm got a news flash for ya they do and I am....
13 I have decided spaghetti and cookies are not enough motivation to get me over the start- uh I mean finish line.. So I am placing a large Hershey's chocolate bar at the tent for when I am done..(nobody touches it nobody gets hurt...remember I am armed with my rock.)
14. I worry about getting to the tent after crossing the finish line...I can start I can plod on to the end but finished means just that FINISHED... that may be when I use the rock....
15. they said they will sweep the course of people if you are not keeping pace...all this week as I have walked I hear king size street sweepers behind me .,..it is scary,,,, like a horror movie these sweeper people are not my friends...
16. I have learned that I am not a sporting person I walk to go from point A to point B to go out and do a 10 mile walk " for the fun of it" is NUTS and 13.6 means I have lost my marbles (which by the way is TRUE that's why they give you one BACK after the race at the dinner ) ..I like lots of other things but sore blistered feet sweating like a hog and the thoughts of planter fasciitis are like a personal nightmare... BUT there's always the Hershey bar..
17 I heard last week someone had been training all this time and broke their ankle and thought lucky dog...just kidding ...sorta ..ok ...not right thinking but dang great excuse to stay home and watch it all on T.V.
18 I had surgery on my knee and the Dr was pessimistic about me doing this ( I think it is just his nature or maybe the degree hanging on his wall..hummm) But I have told my husband if I get hurt take me to someone else so I don't have to hear I told you so..I would rather tell him SEE I DID IT!
all that said -- I want that medal that little piece of history that states I finished the 32nd 500 Festival mini marathon -it doesn't say I was chased by the sweeper people it doesn't mention that I was in corral Z the 501st person over the finish line gets the same medal as the 35,000th person... ( think ABOUT that you elite runners!)
it says I finished the race... as Paul said in 2 Timothy 4:7 I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith ~ whoooo hoooo!!
Kim
Greenwood Bricks to Bricks
1 P.M.A. (positive mental attitude) totally beats C.M.A. (crappy mental attitide) but someday's...CMA prevails....
2. I walked the last mile and 1/2 of the 10 miler by myself...it wasn't fun in fact I thought I was in social purgatory. I sang Jesus Loves me and Father Abraham and the St Francis guy on the bike kept circling me .....BUT Ken tells us this is a social event I figure with 35,000 people I can find Someone to talk to those last 2-3 miles...
3. forget laying everything out the night before I am awake and excited at 5:30 a.m. I need to worry about AFTER the race...and lay out my jammies so I don't have to move much once I get home. ok it is because I won't be moving much once I get home
4. I am getting a shirt made that says: the first shall be last and the last shall be first! this way chip time doesn't really matter now does it...haha
5. if I have to start in corral Z and walk 30 min to starting gate...then I want extra credit for the 13.6 + miles...HEY Mr Kenyan start at the back of the pack and win...
6. I have learned big words like pronation and planter fasciitis , that I will never again use in everyday life
7. I learned that getting fit by the "shoe guys" don't mean your shoes fit ( as I found out at mile 5 of the 10 miler)
8. at mile 9 on the 10 miler I found out stealing a rock from someone's yard and confessing to the cop -will NOT get you a ride in the nice shiny comfy police car...maybe I shoulda beaned him on the head with it...I will carry my emergency free ride rock with me on the mini....
10. I learned that someone has made towels and sucked the life outta them to make them dehydrated so we can pour water on them and re hydrate them to use them....why?
11. I learned I really do not like lime gatorade... no body does that is why it is free at the mini...I bet the first 5 Kenyans get the good stuff...who would know??
12. I have learned that no one expects anyone sized over a 2x to walk this race...hummm got a news flash for ya they do and I am....
13 I have decided spaghetti and cookies are not enough motivation to get me over the start- uh I mean finish line.. So I am placing a large Hershey's chocolate bar at the tent for when I am done..(nobody touches it nobody gets hurt...remember I am armed with my rock.)
14. I worry about getting to the tent after crossing the finish line...I can start I can plod on to the end but finished means just that FINISHED... that may be when I use the rock....
15. they said they will sweep the course of people if you are not keeping pace...all this week as I have walked I hear king size street sweepers behind me .,..it is scary,,,, like a horror movie these sweeper people are not my friends...
16. I have learned that I am not a sporting person I walk to go from point A to point B to go out and do a 10 mile walk " for the fun of it" is NUTS and 13.6 means I have lost my marbles (which by the way is TRUE that's why they give you one BACK after the race at the dinner ) ..I like lots of other things but sore blistered feet sweating like a hog and the thoughts of planter fasciitis are like a personal nightmare... BUT there's always the Hershey bar..
17 I heard last week someone had been training all this time and broke their ankle and thought lucky dog...just kidding ...sorta ..ok ...not right thinking but dang great excuse to stay home and watch it all on T.V.
18 I had surgery on my knee and the Dr was pessimistic about me doing this ( I think it is just his nature or maybe the degree hanging on his wall..hummm) But I have told my husband if I get hurt take me to someone else so I don't have to hear I told you so..I would rather tell him SEE I DID IT!
all that said -- I want that medal that little piece of history that states I finished the 32nd 500 Festival mini marathon -it doesn't say I was chased by the sweeper people it doesn't mention that I was in corral Z the 501st person over the finish line gets the same medal as the 35,000th person... ( think ABOUT that you elite runners!)
it says I finished the race... as Paul said in 2 Timothy 4:7 I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith ~ whoooo hoooo!!
Kim
Greenwood Bricks to Bricks
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
urgggghhhhhh
ok THIS is awful... I went to weigh in this afternoon and it was
+1.2 now HOW can that be ?? just in the last 2 days I walked 10 miles and swam 1 mile I haven't eaten crazy ... what the heck is going on?? I am so frustrated...I told Scott I coulda sat on the couch and eaten chocolate bars and gained 1.2 pounds who needs this really???
Ok I am NOT gonna do the couch thing at least not yet ,,,the next 2 weeks I WILL track all my food and keep up the swimming and walking after all the mini is May 3rd if I dont lose something then I am going into Dr Ericas and I swear I am not leaving until she figures out what the heck is wrong.
oh there is 8th grade girl drama at school and frankly I am over it . all of it and I am not even sure what IT is...
ok enough whining...Lord ...I am needing help here please send it in the form of something friendly and not exercise....
+1.2 now HOW can that be ?? just in the last 2 days I walked 10 miles and swam 1 mile I haven't eaten crazy ... what the heck is going on?? I am so frustrated...I told Scott I coulda sat on the couch and eaten chocolate bars and gained 1.2 pounds who needs this really???
Ok I am NOT gonna do the couch thing at least not yet ,,,the next 2 weeks I WILL track all my food and keep up the swimming and walking after all the mini is May 3rd if I dont lose something then I am going into Dr Ericas and I swear I am not leaving until she figures out what the heck is wrong.
oh there is 8th grade girl drama at school and frankly I am over it . all of it and I am not even sure what IT is...
ok enough whining...Lord ...I am needing help here please send it in the form of something friendly and not exercise....
Monday, April 21, 2008
10 miler
Oh my gosh did the 10 miler yesterday,,,,killed me ! seriously I got blisters on my feet and my whole body HURTS...and the worst part of it is... I was like the bottom i was 13th from the last place...so while I wasn't LAST I coulda been! was it fun oh I guess for like the first mile or so...then it became tedious one foot in front of the other.... I am not sure about doing the mini ...not sure I care enough to do it and feel this way after. I have felt this bad but only after an emmaus weekend when I was like ma cha...that means only 3 hours sleep a night and moving all day... but THAT is for the Lord. my husband is proud of me - me I am just hurting!! I can't wait to get in the pool today not sure how much i will get in lap wise but it has to help!!
here's the results ...
748
Kim--- Indianapolis IN 768
47
45 F 45-49
2:57:55.3
2:58:54.8
0:59.4
not sure what the 2 finish times mean one is chip time the other is actual or something who knows....
my pace is like 17:48 min....gotta have 18 min pace for mini ...
ahhh well if I dont lose something this week I am gonna shoot someone....LOL
here's the results ...
748
Kim--- Indianapolis IN 768
47
45 F 45-49
2:57:55.3
2:58:54.8
0:59.4
not sure what the 2 finish times mean one is chip time the other is actual or something who knows....
my pace is like 17:48 min....gotta have 18 min pace for mini ...
ahhh well if I dont lose something this week I am gonna shoot someone....LOL
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Hard today
man I am SO wanting to just stuff my face find some chocolate soup and just roll in it ...it is bad. Lord please take away these cravings this non hunger that is gnawing at my soul my mind my feelings of emptyness are not of you.
maybe I just need to get up and get moving my house is a wreck so it isn't like I don't have anything to keep me busy.
I did have my first weigh in on my weight watchers
lost 5 pounds. who hoo....
ok well I guess I will go talk to my Lord....
maybe I just need to get up and get moving my house is a wreck so it isn't like I don't have anything to keep me busy.
I did have my first weigh in on my weight watchers
lost 5 pounds. who hoo....
ok well I guess I will go talk to my Lord....
Saturday, April 05, 2008
walking....and Chocolate cake,,,
Walking ---today Madeline and I walked 4 miles AND...I didn't die....LOL and I know they say never say never but I can tell you I am NEVER gonna be one of those loves exercise gotta do it people. Tho we didn't get done with the four miles and go to DQ which was unfortunately my first thought...LOL
why is this walking thing SO important well in less then 4 weeks we are walking in the Mini marathon... I did reassure Madeline that this is THE race...I am not interested is doing one after this In my book is IT...LOL
Chocolate cake--- today in the paper some guy made a statement that sums up my feelings completely He said he was a chocolate lover and if someone said to him give up chocolate or your gonna die I say well bring on the chocolate cake and plan a funeral!
Amen brother!! LOL
why is this walking thing SO important well in less then 4 weeks we are walking in the Mini marathon... I did reassure Madeline that this is THE race...I am not interested is doing one after this In my book is IT...LOL
Chocolate cake--- today in the paper some guy made a statement that sums up my feelings completely He said he was a chocolate lover and if someone said to him give up chocolate or your gonna die I say well bring on the chocolate cake and plan a funeral!
Amen brother!! LOL
Friday, April 04, 2008
Submitting......
Wow had a new thought in my quiet time submitting my body to God...
know about submitting my mind my life my will ...but my body?? I kinda thought it was all the same thing but God says NOT-
Rather it is diet or exercise or healing of the bad knee I just need to submit it all to Him ... And I feel in this weight watcher thing it is submitting my body to Him,..,.and in this excersise thing it is submitting my body to Him and even in this painful knee thing I need to just give it over to Him... I can not fix it ...submit submit submit....there is a time I have to admit (haha)I would have rather ran then to submit...(such a poet ..LOL) But now it is ok ...And I am renouncing the rebellion that wells up inside of me these last few days as I am submitting my body to Him to this program. Rebelllion like an angry lion roaring inside of me loudly at this process..the Lord says to me --Be still And know I am God ...and I know that He is....
know about submitting my mind my life my will ...but my body?? I kinda thought it was all the same thing but God says NOT-
Rather it is diet or exercise or healing of the bad knee I just need to submit it all to Him ... And I feel in this weight watcher thing it is submitting my body to Him,..,.and in this excersise thing it is submitting my body to Him and even in this painful knee thing I need to just give it over to Him... I can not fix it ...submit submit submit....there is a time I have to admit (haha)I would have rather ran then to submit...(such a poet ..LOL) But now it is ok ...And I am renouncing the rebellion that wells up inside of me these last few days as I am submitting my body to Him to this program. Rebelllion like an angry lion roaring inside of me loudly at this process..the Lord says to me --Be still And know I am God ...and I know that He is....
Thursday, April 03, 2008
weight watchers
Well I did it on my own ..went and joined weight watchers back to the land of points and tracking food ect. Accountability is really what it is all about. And the reason I always hated weight watchers before is because I get so darn cold last night I was freezing! I think it must be the water! LOL Maybe I need to drink warm water (yuck!)
The swimming is going well still.. I am still loving it ...I have to pick up my walking tho for the Mini-- last night at Bricks to Bricks that is the first time I have actually walked in months...because of this knee...anyway it was good but I am way behind!! LOL this week I am supposed to be getting in 24-28 miles...with one day being at 7-8 miles....man I just figured that in my head and (said to the empty room like it was nothing...)that's only 4 miles a day ONLY!!!!!!!
if I swim 1/2 mile of it does that count?? LOL
So swimming AND walking ...where am I gonna find the time???
for the record I hate weight watchers,....BUT I feel it is the right thing to do...Why is the Lord having me do something I hate...why can't He let me be on the Hershey's chocolate diet ...oh wait that's what I HAVE been on...LOL
ok heres a thought maybe I should walk to swimming...LOL its about 2 miles there...what kind of exercise nut would THAT make me???LOL ROTFLOL....seriously !!
The swimming is going well still.. I am still loving it ...I have to pick up my walking tho for the Mini-- last night at Bricks to Bricks that is the first time I have actually walked in months...because of this knee...anyway it was good but I am way behind!! LOL this week I am supposed to be getting in 24-28 miles...with one day being at 7-8 miles....man I just figured that in my head and (said to the empty room like it was nothing...)that's only 4 miles a day ONLY!!!!!!!
if I swim 1/2 mile of it does that count?? LOL
So swimming AND walking ...where am I gonna find the time???
for the record I hate weight watchers,....BUT I feel it is the right thing to do...Why is the Lord having me do something I hate...why can't He let me be on the Hershey's chocolate diet ...oh wait that's what I HAVE been on...LOL
ok heres a thought maybe I should walk to swimming...LOL its about 2 miles there...what kind of exercise nut would THAT make me???LOL ROTFLOL....seriously !!
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
getting peace that surpasses my own understanding ....
with that said...I am mopving way too fast in directions I do not believe the Lord wants me to go....
with the photography thing,,,I can see that MAYBE school is in my future...but NOT now...I still have loose ends to tie up from the last few years notes to type - ect. I have jumped ahead in this new life without talking it over with the Lord I just took it on my own to say I want to be I want to do ...that was wrong of me and for that I am sorry Lord. That was me being in the drivers seat for a short min or a couple long months now I forgot I am in the trunk. and we all can see what kind of train wreack you can get into when you drive from the trunk.
He is king of my life then I got to seek Him for the direction of my life.,..not me pick and expect Him to get with the program my arrogance is astounding after all He has done for me.
So humbeling myself before my King ...sitting back and waiting on Him doing the things HE has put before me once again a student of obedience ... oh I will still take some pictures but this picture thing IS not my focus. and the peace part is I don't have to worry about it HE is my guide my map quest...I will be looking at Him to see where I am to go next.
the peace part comes from I feel like I have been speaking a forign launguage the last few months but no it is because I became unhooked from my life line Jesus I was in forign lands but now I am back home in His arms under His direction. it feels good to be home .
thank you Jesus for your patience and for letting me grow in you-
with the photography thing,,,I can see that MAYBE school is in my future...but NOT now...I still have loose ends to tie up from the last few years notes to type - ect. I have jumped ahead in this new life without talking it over with the Lord I just took it on my own to say I want to be I want to do ...that was wrong of me and for that I am sorry Lord. That was me being in the drivers seat for a short min or a couple long months now I forgot I am in the trunk. and we all can see what kind of train wreack you can get into when you drive from the trunk.
He is king of my life then I got to seek Him for the direction of my life.,..not me pick and expect Him to get with the program my arrogance is astounding after all He has done for me.
So humbeling myself before my King ...sitting back and waiting on Him doing the things HE has put before me once again a student of obedience ... oh I will still take some pictures but this picture thing IS not my focus. and the peace part is I don't have to worry about it HE is my guide my map quest...I will be looking at Him to see where I am to go next.
the peace part comes from I feel like I have been speaking a forign launguage the last few months but no it is because I became unhooked from my life line Jesus I was in forign lands but now I am back home in His arms under His direction. it feels good to be home .
thank you Jesus for your patience and for letting me grow in you-
Saturday, March 22, 2008
saturday night before Easter morn.....
Wow it is Sat night of Easter weekend ...family's will be coloring eggs (miss those days I truly do!!) Moms will be bathing the kids ,ironing and setting out those nice new crisp Easter clothes...and after the little ones are in bed moms and dads...ok well moms arrange the Easter baskets filling them with Candy and toys and that crinkly green cellophane grass,,,,
But go back- back to that first Easter...and to the thoughts and fears of those who loved and believed in Jesus...we know Thomas had to have his doubts as to if Jesus was going to Rise on Sunday from the dead ....but what about Peter and John the beloved...and Mary oh my heart as a mother breaks for her and what she saw on Fri,... her beautiful boy Gods son tortured and killed in such a way and SHE knew He was Gods son but surly even she had a doubt or a touch of fear of what would REALLY happen on Sunday the 3rd day....the hope ever alive that her Son would be whole again.,. not tattered and torn and bloody as she saw him last.
So tonight as you try and scrub those little hands free of egg dye ( oh come on all kids need purple and blue fingers on Easter!) And as you sneak a piece of chocolate or two from the basket,....think on what it was like on the other side of Easter morning the other side of the resurrection as they waited in sorrow at what went before them on Fri-- to what is awaited on Sun... If Friday is colored Black and Sunday is colored white then surly Sat is the color of grey for waiting and suspense and sadness and hope ....
Happy Easter -- He is Risen indeed!~!
But go back- back to that first Easter...and to the thoughts and fears of those who loved and believed in Jesus...we know Thomas had to have his doubts as to if Jesus was going to Rise on Sunday from the dead ....but what about Peter and John the beloved...and Mary oh my heart as a mother breaks for her and what she saw on Fri,... her beautiful boy Gods son tortured and killed in such a way and SHE knew He was Gods son but surly even she had a doubt or a touch of fear of what would REALLY happen on Sunday the 3rd day....the hope ever alive that her Son would be whole again.,. not tattered and torn and bloody as she saw him last.
So tonight as you try and scrub those little hands free of egg dye ( oh come on all kids need purple and blue fingers on Easter!) And as you sneak a piece of chocolate or two from the basket,....think on what it was like on the other side of Easter morning the other side of the resurrection as they waited in sorrow at what went before them on Fri-- to what is awaited on Sun... If Friday is colored Black and Sunday is colored white then surly Sat is the color of grey for waiting and suspense and sadness and hope ....
Happy Easter -- He is Risen indeed!~!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
making God centered decisions...
my alters ego melting thru Gods love and healing....
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I seem to be headed in a direction I am not sure God wants me to go.
I need to be still and listen not rush like the fool I am.
It seems since last year and all the healing that has taken place over the last 5 years in my life I have so many things that "I" can now do - all are gifts from Him but where is my niche?
What is it HE wants me to do?
I love the photography thing but frankly if He wants me to do that then He truly is going to have to open my mind to learn the things I need to learn - And I guess for my part in it I need to sit still and listen to Him to hear it.
There are so many things - talents and I don't want to give up a one - it makes me sad but I also know I really can't do them all well. /so I am going to have to decide- thru Him WHAT it is HE wants me to focus on.
I know I need to renounce this sadness ...but wouldn't it be natural to be a little sad?
I know there is a ministry out there - He has it for me - I am not sure when it is right for me - I am not sure about maybe going back to school...back ...heck how about going TO school. So much to learn so much I missed .. guess the Lord would have to open my mind up to THAT too...
I really was hoping that thru the new church I would "find" my niche and it would be easy but that isn't happening and what I see is that would NOT be me depending on Him....
Dear God I know I am so much better at this then I was 6 years ago.,..but Lord it is still so hard -
Thursday, March 06, 2008
grieving heart
oh Lord my heart grieves for the sinfulness of this nation.
I see plenty why people stop reading newspapers and stop watching TV the sinfulness that is tolerated by the world that is perpetuated by the world is grievous. Lord Jesus could you come back soon. My heart and soul can not take the ugly that has become the world.
My baby girl is going to Thailand to work with the rescued women and GIRLS who have been sold ..SOLD into the sex trades...bought by men - the TV shows that have no redeeming values even as entertainment they cause heartache and embarrassment
my heart is heavy this morning with the weight of the worlds sinfulness and my own.
I see plenty why people stop reading newspapers and stop watching TV the sinfulness that is tolerated by the world that is perpetuated by the world is grievous. Lord Jesus could you come back soon. My heart and soul can not take the ugly that has become the world.
My baby girl is going to Thailand to work with the rescued women and GIRLS who have been sold ..SOLD into the sex trades...bought by men - the TV shows that have no redeeming values even as entertainment they cause heartache and embarrassment
my heart is heavy this morning with the weight of the worlds sinfulness and my own.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Scrapbooking...
This weekend is MY weekend -- I am going to a hotel and scrapbooking all weekend. I am inviting friends to come and set up and scrap but the space is mine ! yea!!
I am going to the fairfield which is a suite - So the next few days it is getting ready --packing everything up and getting supplies....
My goal is to get Jenni caught up thru 2007...so all of 06 and all of 07...that is a LOT!
And when I get back I have a wedding consult / engagement photo session...
exciting times I live in!!
I am going to the fairfield which is a suite - So the next few days it is getting ready --packing everything up and getting supplies....
My goal is to get Jenni caught up thru 2007...so all of 06 and all of 07...that is a LOT!
And when I get back I have a wedding consult / engagement photo session...
exciting times I live in!!
Monday, March 03, 2008
feeling His call
been not doing what I should in my holiness walk -
and feeling His call to me in my soul
feeling my heart being pulled by His Word feeling my inner most being touched by His love
soaking up His word needing more more more
His promises cover me like a soft blanket in saftey and assurences that all is well for me
I want to live in His words live in His warmth in His love in His Grace -
my heart is bursting with love for Jesus what He has done for me -
Thank you Lord
and feeling His call to me in my soul
feeling my heart being pulled by His Word feeling my inner most being touched by His love
soaking up His word needing more more more
His promises cover me like a soft blanket in saftey and assurences that all is well for me
I want to live in His words live in His warmth in His love in His Grace -
my heart is bursting with love for Jesus what He has done for me -
Thank you Lord
Sunday, March 02, 2008
overwhelmed
Wow it has been rough these last couple days Scott sick Jen still not 100% the cookie booths the garage sale for school the boys decsions that have to be made it is all crashing down on me and I am ready to snap--no snapping no splitting no breaking leaning on the Lord laying my head on His broad shoulders and resting.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Sick Husbands
Wow Poor Scott is home sick with the flu...he is miserable --the really bad part is everytime he coughs I want to get out the pinesol..and spray.............
it isn't right I should be nicer... :)
it isn't right I should be nicer... :)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Eyes on Jesus
Matthew 14:Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
Been a lot going on gotta keep my eyes on Jesus - Be Still and Know He is God...
Jennis surgury is tomorrow...they are putting her all the way out
Josh at c-9 was wittness to an accident a kid who was right next to him fell off the joist did a header 15 ft. onto the concrete today they have found he has a fractured skull shattered collerbone and 3 vertabre are messed up ouch- really scared me yesterday to get the call from school -they called me becasue they had to take a statement from Josh -- he of course was shaken up he said the kid was there then he was gone...
Jes is headed to Thiland this summer - so far away so scary to me
all this in 3 days...
keeping my eyes on Jesus holding fast to His hand as was advised to me -- I am listening....... learning ......staying whole ......
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
Been a lot going on gotta keep my eyes on Jesus - Be Still and Know He is God...
Jennis surgury is tomorrow...they are putting her all the way out
Josh at c-9 was wittness to an accident a kid who was right next to him fell off the joist did a header 15 ft. onto the concrete today they have found he has a fractured skull shattered collerbone and 3 vertabre are messed up ouch- really scared me yesterday to get the call from school -they called me becasue they had to take a statement from Josh -- he of course was shaken up he said the kid was there then he was gone...
Jes is headed to Thiland this summer - so far away so scary to me
all this in 3 days...
keeping my eyes on Jesus holding fast to His hand as was advised to me -- I am listening....... learning ......staying whole ......
Monday, February 11, 2008
Lafayette
http://youtube.com/watch?v=hZJqV9z9xYM
copy and paste this and you can see the cheer contest the girls won 1st out of 7 schools
It was awesome ! They are very strict on no suggestive movements ect. so it is a very clean dance! yeah morals and values wins!
the weekend was good -only a few bumps ...
Friday, February 08, 2008
Leaning on Jesus
Today is kinda hectic Jen has a Cheerleading tournament this weekend in Lafayette I am feeling inside unsettled kinda jumbled...today - well everyday BUT esp. today I need to take Jesus hand and lean on Him
He is my strength my joy my everything....Without Him I am nothing...
Picturing the perfect Shepherd taking me to that tent keeping me safe holding me secure in His arms Rev 7:15-17
I know to keep my "SELF" together I gotta lean on Him everyday but especally these kinda days
He is my strength my joy my everything....Without Him I am nothing...
Picturing the perfect Shepherd taking me to that tent keeping me safe holding me secure in His arms Rev 7:15-17
I know to keep my "SELF" together I gotta lean on Him everyday but especally these kinda days
Thursday, February 07, 2008
the Rain has stopped!
yeahh! the Rain has stopped my smile is back life is still hectic and crazy BUT the rain has stopped!
Here is a quote from BSF about Worship....
week after week we witness the same Miracle that God stifles His laughter and doesn't blow our dancing bear to smithereens
I don't know who said this but I see truth in it
I can SO see this in our churches and in my own worship sometimes...
Lord Jesus I am sorry --
Wow -
Here is a quote from BSF about Worship....
week after week we witness the same Miracle that God stifles His laughter and doesn't blow our dancing bear to smithereens
I don't know who said this but I see truth in it
I can SO see this in our churches and in my own worship sometimes...
Lord Jesus I am sorry --
Wow -
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
The Rain.......
Oh my gosh the rain is killin me!!
ok need a bright spot in this rainey deluge ...
I went swimming today...no not in my yard but at the pool...LOL
got my 1 mile in 36 laps down and back...
I think I need to spend some quiet time with the Lord to brighten my spirits...
to refresh my soul...because yesterday and today are wearing me thin and not thin like I am getting skinny but thin in my spirit-
and I am wanting to eat -for comfort I suppose ..yes of course it is for comfort..but frankly the orthodontist put on new wires this morning and my teeth are tightening as I type :) So no eating ..the braces diet is back on today!! LOL
Heres my Joy..
Psalm 100
A psalm. For giving thanks.
1 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
2 Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.
3 Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his [a] ;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
5 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations
Aman
ok need a bright spot in this rainey deluge ...
I went swimming today...no not in my yard but at the pool...LOL
got my 1 mile in 36 laps down and back...
I think I need to spend some quiet time with the Lord to brighten my spirits...
to refresh my soul...because yesterday and today are wearing me thin and not thin like I am getting skinny but thin in my spirit-
and I am wanting to eat -for comfort I suppose ..yes of course it is for comfort..but frankly the orthodontist put on new wires this morning and my teeth are tightening as I type :) So no eating ..the braces diet is back on today!! LOL
Heres my Joy..
Psalm 100
A psalm. For giving thanks.
1 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
2 Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.
3 Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his [a] ;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
5 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations
Aman
Monday, February 04, 2008
pictures
playing with the camera
Jeremy and Morgan... and Jeremy and Josh..
they were good sports about it gotta work on the lighting
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Riley Hospital
It was the 24 month Riley Hospital check ups for Jenni and Jeremy-- it was a lesson in patience and frustration but it ended well!
They were running 2 hours behind....and the toys there don't keep them occupied anymore...LOL
But when you are walking out with relitivly healthy kids hey how can you really complain!! Some of the kids there are So very sick.
Jenni she wanted to have Jeremy take her to her practice after the first hour -I was like uhh you have to see the cardiologist,,,she says is he gonna touch me?? Can't you just show him my echo and my picture??!! LOL uhh no Jen it doesn't work that way!
Ahh well we sharred lots of laughs as we waited quality time right??LOL
Now we await the snow and it is Basketball tournament weekend...
Go Emmaus!
They were running 2 hours behind....and the toys there don't keep them occupied anymore...LOL
But when you are walking out with relitivly healthy kids hey how can you really complain!! Some of the kids there are So very sick.
Jenni she wanted to have Jeremy take her to her practice after the first hour -I was like uhh you have to see the cardiologist,,,she says is he gonna touch me?? Can't you just show him my echo and my picture??!! LOL uhh no Jen it doesn't work that way!
Ahh well we sharred lots of laughs as we waited quality time right??LOL
Now we await the snow and it is Basketball tournament weekend...
Go Emmaus!
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Photography ....
I used my Christmas $ to buy some photography stuff...I got 2 backdrops and a backdrop holder and some lighting I got 2 heavy duty stools that match at the goodwill...
So now I guess it is time to play around with it! I am not really sure where to set it up at tho...LOL
I guess I can clean up my scrapbooking room and set it up there, just so I can play around with it.
I am not trading in Scrapbooking for photography tho!! LOL
I might be able to take some senior pics next year!
heres to new hobbys anyone want to model ???
So now I guess it is time to play around with it! I am not really sure where to set it up at tho...LOL
I guess I can clean up my scrapbooking room and set it up there, just so I can play around with it.
I am not trading in Scrapbooking for photography tho!! LOL
I might be able to take some senior pics next year!
heres to new hobbys anyone want to model ???
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
God is God and I am not....
in this world of control and being in control we have to realize we control only our hearts...and sometimes our minds .tho sometimes we let the enemy control our thoughts which leads us to think WE can be God ...to think we WANT to be God....how dumb....
God is God and I for one am glad HE is the one in charge.
Dear Lord please don't let me have control for one nano second please do not take your hands off me - today tomorrow or ever...
Becasue God is God and I am not......
God is God and I for one am glad HE is the one in charge.
Dear Lord please don't let me have control for one nano second please do not take your hands off me - today tomorrow or ever...
Becasue God is God and I am not......
Saturday, January 26, 2008
walking
Well today was a Bricks to bricks class and a walk...I did walk the mile and my knee did ok...I did come home and ice it tho,,,
the class was SO Boring... bla nutrition bla bla injurys bla shoes bla bla...the walk part was fun cold but fun -
I am not a kenyan... So stop with all the technacal junk already...
And I want Chocolate hear me CHOCOLATE
give it to me and nobody gets hurt! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
why are there people who can eat any old thing they want and then there is me??
Lord I know this is so stupid and childish but it is NOT FAIR!
and what comes to mind with that is ...look at so many peoples BIG problems and I am whining about chocolate bar...enough... ok isn't great that this is my biggest problem right now how lucky am I...
the class was SO Boring... bla nutrition bla bla injurys bla shoes bla bla...the walk part was fun cold but fun -
I am not a kenyan... So stop with all the technacal junk already...
And I want Chocolate hear me CHOCOLATE
give it to me and nobody gets hurt! grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
why are there people who can eat any old thing they want and then there is me??
Lord I know this is so stupid and childish but it is NOT FAIR!
and what comes to mind with that is ...look at so many peoples BIG problems and I am whining about chocolate bar...enough... ok isn't great that this is my biggest problem right now how lucky am I...
Friday, January 25, 2008
C is for cookie ...
the cookies are coming and what in the WORLD am I gonna do?? For those who don't know GS cookies are like white castles you have to open a box for the drive home from pick up!!! What you all don't do that?? hummmm well this is gonna be HARD having all those yummy cookies here ...whaaaaaaa the thin mints and the do si dos ...
the rest who cares!!! LOL
ok well I am done whining about that they don't come in till the 14th so maybe by then I will have a stratagy worked out!
ok.............
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Gods Faithfulness is Amazing
I know this to be true,,,His love for us is unending and His faithfulness is beyond our scope of understanding.
He is to be our everything yet we so often regulate Him to be our last resort.,
Why is this??
I am woking on this losing weight thing and excersising...
if Jesus is truly my everything then why the other day when i was frustrated and crazed over the car thing running to a game did I turm to those 2 (count them 2) snicker bars?? what did snickers ever fix? nothng but the fat on my belly...
Dear Jesus I am so sorry I forgot the basic lessons you have taught me to Be still and know you are God.
I am nothing --
He is to be our everything yet we so often regulate Him to be our last resort.,
Why is this??
I am woking on this losing weight thing and excersising...
if Jesus is truly my everything then why the other day when i was frustrated and crazed over the car thing running to a game did I turm to those 2 (count them 2) snicker bars?? what did snickers ever fix? nothng but the fat on my belly...
Dear Jesus I am so sorry I forgot the basic lessons you have taught me to Be still and know you are God.
I am nothing --
Monday, January 21, 2008
36 laps....and Owen
that is my Owen...he is the cutest! And he loves his Auntie Kim
wow swam 1 mile today...after not swimming for 3 days it about killed me ! And the massage thing wow not great thing at all...went with the sister shoulda gone to the spa...never cut a dollar when talking about massages!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I found the Devil...he lives at the cheesecake factory...
Odd I know and considering I have NEVER been to Cheesecake factory makes this odder still yet I believe this to be true...LOL
I was at Sams club and they had samples of the Godiva Dble. Chocolate cheesecake yummm I was trying to figure out how many times I could go back and get a sample before the lady cut me off...LOL it was SOOOOOO good.. I called all my friends and told them about this wonderful Cheesecake ... no sense in getting fat alone..and we all decided it was not only good enough to eat but oh my gosh I coulda filled a bath tub full of this wonderful dessert and just slathered in it ( all the women got this ..my husband and sons all just thought ewww gross...LOL) ANYWAY
WENT TO http://www.calorieking.com and looked it up
and heres how I figure the devil lives there...they have one cheese cake that is Chocolate PB Cookie Dough ONE slice of this is 1150 calories...
Nutrition Facts
Calories 1150
Total Fat 74 g 114%
Sat. Fat 37 g 185%
Cholesterol 200 mg 67%
Sodium 710 mg 30%
Total Carbs. 114 g 38%
Dietary Fiber 5 g 20%
Sugars 85 g
Protein 17 g
Calcium 100 mg
HerEs the devil part LOOK AT THE NUMBER OF FAT CALORIES!
Fat 666 cals (56%)
Carbs. 456 cals (38%)
Protein 68 cals (6%)
OH MY GOSH!
CRAZY HUH??? lol ONLY THE DEVIL WOULD NAKE SOMETHING SO BAD FOR YOU taste SO DARN GOOD!!
I was at Sams club and they had samples of the Godiva Dble. Chocolate cheesecake yummm I was trying to figure out how many times I could go back and get a sample before the lady cut me off...LOL it was SOOOOOO good.. I called all my friends and told them about this wonderful Cheesecake ... no sense in getting fat alone..and we all decided it was not only good enough to eat but oh my gosh I coulda filled a bath tub full of this wonderful dessert and just slathered in it ( all the women got this ..my husband and sons all just thought ewww gross...LOL) ANYWAY
WENT TO http://www.calorieking.com and looked it up
and heres how I figure the devil lives there...they have one cheese cake that is Chocolate PB Cookie Dough ONE slice of this is 1150 calories...
Nutrition Facts
Calories 1150
Total Fat 74 g 114%
Sat. Fat 37 g 185%
Cholesterol 200 mg 67%
Sodium 710 mg 30%
Total Carbs. 114 g 38%
Dietary Fiber 5 g 20%
Sugars 85 g
Protein 17 g
Calcium 100 mg
HerEs the devil part LOOK AT THE NUMBER OF FAT CALORIES!
Fat 666 cals (56%)
Carbs. 456 cals (38%)
Protein 68 cals (6%)
OH MY GOSH!
CRAZY HUH??? lol ONLY THE DEVIL WOULD NAKE SOMETHING SO BAD FOR YOU taste SO DARN GOOD!!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
ugggghhh AGAIN ...
No life guard once again.... GRRRRRR
a six month membership is like .57 cents
a day so it is not the YMCA but is it so
hard to get a guard??
Come on Sisters of St Benedict...
Today tho I go for Sports massage with Sister
Betty Jean... lets hope for good results!
2 days of no swimming I am beicoming grumpy...
I did 2 laps 1/2 mile on the tred mill
so now I will go read my Bible and ice
my knee...
oh oh oh maybe do my BSF...LOL
Verse today...1cor.6:19 Do you not know your body is a temple of the oly Spirit who is in you ,whom you have recieved from God?
yes...my Temple is bigger then most...more like uhhha tajmahal...LOL
Gotta get the temple smaller and heart for Jesus bigger...
a six month membership is like .57 cents
a day so it is not the YMCA but is it so
hard to get a guard??
Come on Sisters of St Benedict...
Today tho I go for Sports massage with Sister
Betty Jean... lets hope for good results!
2 days of no swimming I am beicoming grumpy...
I did 2 laps 1/2 mile on the tred mill
so now I will go read my Bible and ice
my knee...
oh oh oh maybe do my BSF...LOL
Verse today...1cor.6:19 Do you not know your body is a temple of the oly Spirit who is in you ,whom you have recieved from God?
yes...my Temple is bigger then most...more like uhhha tajmahal...LOL
Gotta get the temple smaller and heart for Jesus bigger...
Friday, January 18, 2008
Love this Song wish I wrote it....
you can hear this on KLOVE
http://www.klove.com/music/listenonline.aspx
Michael English - The Only Thing Good In Me
I heard someone say the other day
They’d seen in me true love displayed
Blessed by something I had done for them
No sooner did they speak those words
I found myself somehow disturbed
Uneasy as I took their compliment
‘Cause I know the heart inside this man
I know the truth of who I am
[Chorus]
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
I’ve lived long enough to know
No matter what this life may show
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
If you could walk the hallways of my heart
And see things as they really are
I wonder if you might be surprised
Seeing faded walls of pride and fear
Rooms I’ve filled with faithless tears
And corners where I’ve stood in compromise
But you’d see the work His grace has done
You’d know just how far I’ve come
[Chorus]
In a thousand years
When the dust of this world clears
And I look back on my life
And see in perfect light
http://www.klove.com/music/listenonline.aspx
Michael English - The Only Thing Good In Me
I heard someone say the other day
They’d seen in me true love displayed
Blessed by something I had done for them
No sooner did they speak those words
I found myself somehow disturbed
Uneasy as I took their compliment
‘Cause I know the heart inside this man
I know the truth of who I am
[Chorus]
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
I’ve lived long enough to know
No matter what this life may show
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
If you could walk the hallways of my heart
And see things as they really are
I wonder if you might be surprised
Seeing faded walls of pride and fear
Rooms I’ve filled with faithless tears
And corners where I’ve stood in compromise
But you’d see the work His grace has done
You’d know just how far I’ve come
[Chorus]
In a thousand years
When the dust of this world clears
And I look back on my life
And see in perfect light
no swimming....today:(
Well the life guard called in sick so -no guard -no swim...whaaaaaa
I am really bummed about that ..sob.. it has become a thing ..sniff.. that I LOVE to do ..sob.. and I don't want ..sniffle gasp sob.. To stop now! ..sniff sniff.. ahh ok I am over it ...I guess I will give the old trdmill a whirl...See how the knee holds out on that -I will walk softly and not pound it...LOL there is a family swim tonight maybe I can go then and get a lane...I am obessed I tell you I think I have become a swimoerexic... LOL or would it be a swimbuliemic... oh my gosh ..LOL who knew ? God is SO Good ..all the time!
I am really bummed about that ..sob.. it has become a thing ..sniff.. that I LOVE to do ..sob.. and I don't want ..sniffle gasp sob.. To stop now! ..sniff sniff.. ahh ok I am over it ...I guess I will give the old trdmill a whirl...See how the knee holds out on that -I will walk softly and not pound it...LOL there is a family swim tonight maybe I can go then and get a lane...I am obessed I tell you I think I have become a swimoerexic... LOL or would it be a swimbuliemic... oh my gosh ..LOL who knew ? God is SO Good ..all the time!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Lifes trials & God's Faithfulness
What a comfort these words acan be in the trials of life
Lamentations3
19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
20 I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."
25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.
God is good ALL the time
can I get an aman to that?? LOL
Lamentations3
19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
20 I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."
25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.
God is good ALL the time
can I get an aman to that?? LOL
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Eating
wow it has come to my attention thru some old notes ...about my eating .,..and how it has changed. I no longer seem to be running to Food first in times of trouble heartache and stress. Humm where am I going you might ask ? I am going to Jesus first..WOW it has been a long time in coming--this me coming to Jesus thing..let me tell you it ain't been easy! The enemy tells me Chocolate is so much more there and available but that is SO a lie...JESUS is the one who is there- always there 24/7 /365 honestly now where is the hershey bar when you really need it? laying on some stupid grocery shelf...not in my heart ...not where I am at...So who needs a helper that has to be paid for? has to be carried ? I want to be carried! I was already paid for ...By Jesus ...hummm hershey ...you have let me down no longer do I crave your chocolate city...your land filled with that rich chocolate smell - the smooth chcolate taste on my tounge be gone from me satan! Thank you Jesus for being my all in all...
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Old Friends
Ran into an old friend today - I forgot how much I love Dean!
Till I see him agian it is so funny he lives in the neighborhood behind mine I only see him once every couple of years and always in the oddest places!! Today we were at the crafty owl...LOL
It is wierd I haven't moved much at all since High School - My first apt is accross the street...even....yet I hardly ever see people from High School ...wierd huh? Did they all move far away or are they hiding one street over like Dean?? Of course Dean was one of the 'hood..
Till I see him agian it is so funny he lives in the neighborhood behind mine I only see him once every couple of years and always in the oddest places!! Today we were at the crafty owl...LOL
It is wierd I haven't moved much at all since High School - My first apt is accross the street...even....yet I hardly ever see people from High School ...wierd huh? Did they all move far away or are they hiding one street over like Dean?? Of course Dean was one of the 'hood..
Thursday, January 10, 2008
God is Awesome!
He is totally awesone. My heart is exploding in His goodness and His faithfulness in the day to day workings in our lives. How our heavenly Father cares about the smallest things is so totoally cool. Jesus is not about religon he is all about relationship...Gotta love that!!
ok gonna walk the mini marathon...it intimadates me somewhat...the whole thought ...Tho my friend Madeline is also gonna walk it ,,,I am gonna get us shirts made that say..Matthew 20:16a So the last shall be first, and the first last: HA to those Kenyans!
is it wrong to be like Team Jesus??? I will have to think on that one!!!
ok gonna walk the mini marathon...it intimadates me somewhat...the whole thought ...Tho my friend Madeline is also gonna walk it ,,,I am gonna get us shirts made that say..Matthew 20:16a So the last shall be first, and the first last: HA to those Kenyans!
is it wrong to be like Team Jesus??? I will have to think on that one!!!
Monday, January 07, 2008
Things...
Wow it was soooo warm today....would have loved to have walked but swam instead. whoo hoo I am up to 28 (there and back laps)or I guess 56 laps! in 55 min ...not so bad for an old fat girl...
Doing my Bible Study Fellowship lesson had it 3 weeks due tomorrow hummm doing it tonight go figure,,,,LOL
and ofcourse every other question is a challenge one...
Some good thought provokers tho...
had both girl friends here for supper...seems like we are feeding them 3-4 times a week.... wouldn't thier parents notice they are gone?????
Doing my Bible Study Fellowship lesson had it 3 weeks due tomorrow hummm doing it tonight go figure,,,,LOL
and ofcourse every other question is a challenge one...
Some good thought provokers tho...
had both girl friends here for supper...seems like we are feeding them 3-4 times a week.... wouldn't thier parents notice they are gone?????
Saturday, January 05, 2008
swimming & Bible verses
wow ok so in 7 days I have done 308 laps that is 4.5 miles whooo hooo there is some contoversy on the counting and what is a lap I was told a lap was down and back..then i was told it is one time down is 1 lap...all I know is I have crossed the pool 308 times....if 76 laps is a mile it is 4.5 miles . I love swimming.... who knew? And I am no longer getting lapped by the 70 yr olds at least not today!!! LOL
I have gotten my laundry all done and caught up yea and here is the verse from yesterday which I am still pondering coz I just love it....Eph.2 :10
We are what God has made us , created in Christ Jesus for good works which God prepared beforehand to be our way of life.
I maybe need to take my verse of the day with me and try to memorize it as i do laps....hummmm
I have gotten my laundry all done and caught up yea and here is the verse from yesterday which I am still pondering coz I just love it....Eph.2 :10
We are what God has made us , created in Christ Jesus for good works which God prepared beforehand to be our way of life.
I maybe need to take my verse of the day with me and try to memorize it as i do laps....hummmm
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Happy New year!
Wow 2008 ...who knew! I am swimming to get my knee better it is killing me . the swimming that is! of course I go at it all the way I started last fri with 231/2 laps right off then Sat could only do 9 laps!! My surgen Dr Woo swims there and did he see the 23 laps?? NOOOO only the wimpy 9 sighhhh so yeasterday I went back (it was closed for the 31st and the 1st) it was a test of discipline to go back yesterday as it was what 9 degrees? Anyway I went back and WOW did 25 laps....now today my body is aching...LOL anmd it si 5 degrees I AM going back I swear!!
It is hard when you are getting lapped by 70 yr olds but hey my competitive spirit will allow no less then full speed ahead...
What is God teaching me here...LOL
I am even getting a swim hat.,...no pics of that let me tell ya!!
It is hard when you are getting lapped by 70 yr olds but hey my competitive spirit will allow no less then full speed ahead...
What is God teaching me here...LOL
I am even getting a swim hat.,...no pics of that let me tell ya!!
And So it was Christmas....
Wow what a GREAT Christmas it was! My oldest came home and it was just GOOD. I am in a good place right now at this moment. God IS good...I did have my knee scoped for my torn meniscus and that was not fun but it has all worked out fine. I got all the shopping done beofre the 12th and then it was just rest ans recoup.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Thanksgiving.
Yey it is Thanksgiving day...my baby girl came home after she said she wasn't I am so glad she is here.
there is so much to be Thankful for in my life I can't even hardly begin to believe how great and good my life is.
God has worked some amazing mericals in my life and He is who I am thanking this year.
Today is also my husbands birthday.
I need to think about having this kjnee surgury my knee hurts so darn bad,,,,
ok well gotta get the dressing in the oven and the turkey preped .
happy happy day today!
there is so much to be Thankful for in my life I can't even hardly begin to believe how great and good my life is.
God has worked some amazing mericals in my life and He is who I am thanking this year.
Today is also my husbands birthday.
I need to think about having this kjnee surgury my knee hurts so darn bad,,,,
ok well gotta get the dressing in the oven and the turkey preped .
happy happy day today!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
aggravated
aggravated , agitated, hate being second.
and thats all I am gonna say about THAT .
Thanksgiving is Thursday.
What am I thankful for ?? That with my husband and with Jesus I am never second
I am thankful for my kids and my dog...
I am thankful for my sisters...and for owen he makes me smile-
God is good to me.
and thats all I am gonna say about THAT .
Thanksgiving is Thursday.
What am I thankful for ?? That with my husband and with Jesus I am never second
I am thankful for my kids and my dog...
I am thankful for my sisters...and for owen he makes me smile-
God is good to me.
Friday, November 16, 2007
100 things about me-Kim -Thebizymom
Five things about my life :
1,) It is privedleged I am so Blessed , God is so good!
2.)Thebizymom-it describes me less and less each year sadly...
3.) I hope to make people laugh and to glorify God always thru my words and actions
4.) I have NO regrets about being at home and not into a career
5.) I am forever SAVED by the blood of Jesus
Five things about my relationship with God:
6.) I love God!
7.) I attempt to glorify God in everything I do - even blogging.
8.) God has taught me a lot about trusting him and depending on him over the last six years.
9) Jesus Rocks...seriously He is Awesomly wonderful if you don't KNOW Him I mean REALLY know him...talk to me...
10) God Jesus the Holy Spirit still moving my life teaching me each and everyday.
Five things about my family:
11) I am married to Scott for 22 years we have such an odd begining..one that is funny but nothing to brag about. YET - God has Blessed us.
12) I have 4 Wonderful good kids! Jes who is 20 Jeremy and Josh both 17
Jenni 13 - I love them - I hope they know how much
13) we have a great dog - Molly she is such a part of our family
14)We have great memories of some FUNNY family dinners!
15) we love time away at the trailer in Brown County- nothing better!!
Five things about my Extended family.
16) I love them sometimes it is hard but always loving them
17) I consider my church family at BG my extended family and it makes it so hard to leave them
18) I have 3 sisters 1 brother 3 moms( 1 is deceassed) 1 dad and no he is not into polygamy !!
19) I love truly love my mother in law and loved my father in law (deceassed)
20) I have found in my life there is ALWAYS room for more family!!
Ten things I like to do (in no particular order).
21.) Visit with friends. talk talk talk
22.) Read.
23.) Scrapbook
24.) watch TV
25.) Take pictures.
26.) spend time with my husband
27.) Watch movies.
28.) stay in hotels
29.)get massages!
30.) Anything crafty and creative where I get to be in charge! LOL
Five of my favorite movies of all time:
31.) The Wedding Planner
32.) Braveheart
33.) Fiddler on the Roof
34.) Return to Me
35.) Everafter
Five of my favorite books of all time:
36.) The Bible -sounds corney but it is the TRUTH literally!
37.) The Stand
38.) Tara's Song
39.) Landmines in the path of the believer
40.) Lucifers Hammer
Ten “favorites”:
41.) Purple!
42.) Spring / Fall
43.) Christmas
44.) TAB
45.) Hersheys Chocolate
46.) family dinners
47.) babies / toddlers
48.) orbit bubble gum
49.) cut flowers
50.) Christian music loud in the car..going fast...LOL
Ten favorite verses/passages
51.) Isaiah 41:10
52.) Psalm 90
53) John 15:5
54.) 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
55.) Galatians 5:22-23
56.) Ephesians 4:29
57.) Philippians 4:8
58.) Romans 8
59.) Proverbs 31
60.) Psalm 100
Ten things I don’t like:
61.) Lying
62.) Being late
63.) Injustice
64.) Making mistakes
65.) Not being able to trust someone
66.) Humidity
67.) Hot weather
68.) Not being able to sleep
69.) Not being in control
70.) Not being able to communicate effectively what I am trying to say
Ten random things about me:
71.) I was something of a tomboy growing up, but I did play with Barbies and Dolls yet loved Army games I can still do great machine gun sounds!
72.) I’ve always had an irrational fear of SPIDERS!
73.) I had a secret life...someday they will write a book...LOL
74.) I ALWAYS wanted to be a stay at home mom
75.) I talk to strangers .. I love to make the sales people laugh.
76.) I can blow some REALLY big bubbles !! (even with braces!!)
77.) I like loud (but not screaming) music- especally in the car !
78.) Each time I got pregnant I read all the Clan of the Cave Bear series books (these are huge books!)
79.) My favorite candy has always been Chocolate -second runner up is Orange or Cherry Tootsie pop suckes
80.) Growing up I wanted to have a family that was together a mom a dad and brothers and sisters all together in one house.
Five women who influenced me and how (in no particular order):
81.) My Grandma Midkiff...She was awesome she loved me no matter what always --even when I didn't deserve it.She told us great stories and she was so funny!
82.) Nikki- Mom she taught me I was loveable and how to say what I wanted.How to be heard
83.) my mom - for survivng the best she could after a devistating divorce -it wasn't always the best but I think she tried her best
84.) Susi-mom just who she is I love how she keeps it all together! And for the lengths she went for me one time long ago at a Target store...LOL
85.) My Aunt Becky - she is my aunt my sister my friend she knows the best of me and the worst of me and loves me I admire her strength and humor in the face of her illness and..she used to pay me a quarter to brush her hair big money in the 60's!! But there is the Chatty Cathy doll issue...
Five Things I miss about my kids growing up:
86.) Rocking them to sleep
87.) Reading stories
88.) playing silly games
89.) holding them tight and kissing thier necks
90.) gigles and tickels and those great belly laughs!
If I had ten silly little wishes (and there was nothing more important to wish for…)
91.) I’d wish for a total home makeover/ update ..out with the old ..LOL
starting with our bedroom furniture and wall paper.....
92.) I’d wish for a very fancy, very romantic date for hubby and me, complete with over-the-top overnight hotel accomodations.
93.) I’d wish for a maid.
94.) I'd wish for all my house to be clean and organized at the SAME time!!LOL
95.) I’d wish for one day where all my kids did all their chores without complaining!
96.) I’d wish that my best friends didn't have to work
97.) I’d wish for an all-expense paid trip (for two!) to Capri I would LOVE to go there with my husband
98.) I’d wish for another family vacation to Disney World & add the beach
99.) I’d wish that I could memorize anything by looking at it once.
100.) I’d wish that Hersheys Chocolate was fat free, calorie free, and sugar free, and still TASTED GOOD too!
1,) It is privedleged I am so Blessed , God is so good!
2.)Thebizymom-it describes me less and less each year sadly...
3.) I hope to make people laugh and to glorify God always thru my words and actions
4.) I have NO regrets about being at home and not into a career
5.) I am forever SAVED by the blood of Jesus
Five things about my relationship with God:
6.) I love God!
7.) I attempt to glorify God in everything I do - even blogging.
8.) God has taught me a lot about trusting him and depending on him over the last six years.
9) Jesus Rocks...seriously He is Awesomly wonderful if you don't KNOW Him I mean REALLY know him...talk to me...
10) God Jesus the Holy Spirit still moving my life teaching me each and everyday.
Five things about my family:
11) I am married to Scott for 22 years we have such an odd begining..one that is funny but nothing to brag about. YET - God has Blessed us.
12) I have 4 Wonderful good kids! Jes who is 20 Jeremy and Josh both 17
Jenni 13 - I love them - I hope they know how much
13) we have a great dog - Molly she is such a part of our family
14)We have great memories of some FUNNY family dinners!
15) we love time away at the trailer in Brown County- nothing better!!
Five things about my Extended family.
16) I love them sometimes it is hard but always loving them
17) I consider my church family at BG my extended family and it makes it so hard to leave them
18) I have 3 sisters 1 brother 3 moms( 1 is deceassed) 1 dad and no he is not into polygamy !!
19) I love truly love my mother in law and loved my father in law (deceassed)
20) I have found in my life there is ALWAYS room for more family!!
Ten things I like to do (in no particular order).
21.) Visit with friends. talk talk talk
22.) Read.
23.) Scrapbook
24.) watch TV
25.) Take pictures.
26.) spend time with my husband
27.) Watch movies.
28.) stay in hotels
29.)get massages!
30.) Anything crafty and creative where I get to be in charge! LOL
Five of my favorite movies of all time:
31.) The Wedding Planner
32.) Braveheart
33.) Fiddler on the Roof
34.) Return to Me
35.) Everafter
Five of my favorite books of all time:
36.) The Bible -sounds corney but it is the TRUTH literally!
37.) The Stand
38.) Tara's Song
39.) Landmines in the path of the believer
40.) Lucifers Hammer
Ten “favorites”:
41.) Purple!
42.) Spring / Fall
43.) Christmas
44.) TAB
45.) Hersheys Chocolate
46.) family dinners
47.) babies / toddlers
48.) orbit bubble gum
49.) cut flowers
50.) Christian music loud in the car..going fast...LOL
Ten favorite verses/passages
51.) Isaiah 41:10
52.) Psalm 90
53) John 15:5
54.) 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
55.) Galatians 5:22-23
56.) Ephesians 4:29
57.) Philippians 4:8
58.) Romans 8
59.) Proverbs 31
60.) Psalm 100
Ten things I don’t like:
61.) Lying
62.) Being late
63.) Injustice
64.) Making mistakes
65.) Not being able to trust someone
66.) Humidity
67.) Hot weather
68.) Not being able to sleep
69.) Not being in control
70.) Not being able to communicate effectively what I am trying to say
Ten random things about me:
71.) I was something of a tomboy growing up, but I did play with Barbies and Dolls yet loved Army games I can still do great machine gun sounds!
72.) I’ve always had an irrational fear of SPIDERS!
73.) I had a secret life...someday they will write a book...LOL
74.) I ALWAYS wanted to be a stay at home mom
75.) I talk to strangers .. I love to make the sales people laugh.
76.) I can blow some REALLY big bubbles !! (even with braces!!)
77.) I like loud (but not screaming) music- especally in the car !
78.) Each time I got pregnant I read all the Clan of the Cave Bear series books (these are huge books!)
79.) My favorite candy has always been Chocolate -second runner up is Orange or Cherry Tootsie pop suckes
80.) Growing up I wanted to have a family that was together a mom a dad and brothers and sisters all together in one house.
Five women who influenced me and how (in no particular order):
81.) My Grandma Midkiff...She was awesome she loved me no matter what always --even when I didn't deserve it.She told us great stories and she was so funny!
82.) Nikki- Mom she taught me I was loveable and how to say what I wanted.How to be heard
83.) my mom - for survivng the best she could after a devistating divorce -it wasn't always the best but I think she tried her best
84.) Susi-mom just who she is I love how she keeps it all together! And for the lengths she went for me one time long ago at a Target store...LOL
85.) My Aunt Becky - she is my aunt my sister my friend she knows the best of me and the worst of me and loves me I admire her strength and humor in the face of her illness and..she used to pay me a quarter to brush her hair big money in the 60's!! But there is the Chatty Cathy doll issue...
Five Things I miss about my kids growing up:
86.) Rocking them to sleep
87.) Reading stories
88.) playing silly games
89.) holding them tight and kissing thier necks
90.) gigles and tickels and those great belly laughs!
If I had ten silly little wishes (and there was nothing more important to wish for…)
91.) I’d wish for a total home makeover/ update ..out with the old ..LOL
starting with our bedroom furniture and wall paper.....
92.) I’d wish for a very fancy, very romantic date for hubby and me, complete with over-the-top overnight hotel accomodations.
93.) I’d wish for a maid.
94.) I'd wish for all my house to be clean and organized at the SAME time!!LOL
95.) I’d wish for one day where all my kids did all their chores without complaining!
96.) I’d wish that my best friends didn't have to work
97.) I’d wish for an all-expense paid trip (for two!) to Capri I would LOVE to go there with my husband
98.) I’d wish for another family vacation to Disney World & add the beach
99.) I’d wish that I could memorize anything by looking at it once.
100.) I’d wish that Hersheys Chocolate was fat free, calorie free, and sugar free, and still TASTED GOOD too!
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