my alters ego melting thru Gods love and healing....
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I seem to be headed in a direction I am not sure God wants me to go.
I need to be still and listen not rush like the fool I am.
It seems since last year and all the healing that has taken place over the last 5 years in my life I have so many things that "I" can now do - all are gifts from Him but where is my niche?
What is it HE wants me to do?
I love the photography thing but frankly if He wants me to do that then He truly is going to have to open my mind to learn the things I need to learn - And I guess for my part in it I need to sit still and listen to Him to hear it.
There are so many things - talents and I don't want to give up a one - it makes me sad but I also know I really can't do them all well. /so I am going to have to decide- thru Him WHAT it is HE wants me to focus on.
I know I need to renounce this sadness ...but wouldn't it be natural to be a little sad?
I know there is a ministry out there - He has it for me - I am not sure when it is right for me - I am not sure about maybe going back to school...back ...heck how about going TO school. So much to learn so much I missed .. guess the Lord would have to open my mind up to THAT too...
I really was hoping that thru the new church I would "find" my niche and it would be easy but that isn't happening and what I see is that would NOT be me depending on Him....
Dear God I know I am so much better at this then I was 6 years ago.,..but Lord it is still so hard -
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