Wednesday, June 04, 2008

thoughts

well after swimming 53 miles I got a swim lesson today I told the life guard I won't probably ever learn Spanish and I grew up as a swim rat and I have never been able to do the water breathing/not breathing thing as a swimmer always had to hold my nose to go under once under I am good to go it is just getting there ... and the swimming across I keep my head up outta the water not so efficient ...
well today I started it I still can't quite do both as in swim and keep the breathing in and not not breathing in 1/2 the pool! ...but hey I did do it a few times and I didn't die whooo hooo!


the sky is dark and cloudy and my brain is too
my heart is full of cloudy gloomy rumblings

I feel moody and dark and want to live in an old Victorian house above the crashing sea..with 10 cats (keeping in mind that I don't particularly even LIKE cats!) and a wood burning fireplace and books to read and chocolate cake to eat . nobody comes except the grocer boy to bring mail and supplies...of course I would get no mail coz I would be that crazy lady up on the cliffs in the old Victorian mansion

been typing some lessons some teachings and such and not getting some of the principles . like life doesn't revolve around me well duh and why not?? LOL I do love Jesus life revolves around Jesus and I don't get in that ever so practical way HOW I am not supposed to get involved emotionally in life when life involves my emotions...where do you draw the line at it isn't your fault? And admit when it is?

unaltered life can be so confusing... good but confusing...are you confused yet?

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