wowzer! When I took Josh and Laurens senior pics back in April? May? I thought I left my nifty 50 lens at the park went thru the whole trauma of going back looking for it being mad at me for leaving it on the pic nic table ect... and last night looking for a tennis ball in the car for molly( yeah we were desperate!! ) I tucked my hand under the seat and low and behold there was the lens it was tucked up under the seat against the black seat track...no way coulda sen it! WOW! I am so blessed to have found it ...now tho I have 2~!! ahhh well...
it makes me happy that I didn't lose it!!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
His Word
Have you ever just picked up the bible and held it and had it feel alive? Held it like a shield - like a blanket of Love and protection. Just that feeling of His words living and breathing and comforting .
Opening up to words on a page that are as alive as the heart beating inside your chest - Words that speak deep into your heart your soul and fill you with HIS loving guidance and comfort and wisdom. How the words come alove thru the Holy Spirit and when I see that to me it is like they jump off the page it is like they are all written in bold print and everyone should see the words that are speaking into my heart.
The Bible His Holy words to us Gods love poured out into simple words and phrases that can shape and mold our days our weeks our years our lives.
Bibles sadly laying collecting dust in the corners of peoples torn up empty lives... their hope their future lies in the good news contained between the covers of that dusty old book... if only they would pick it up.
Opening up to words on a page that are as alive as the heart beating inside your chest - Words that speak deep into your heart your soul and fill you with HIS loving guidance and comfort and wisdom. How the words come alove thru the Holy Spirit and when I see that to me it is like they jump off the page it is like they are all written in bold print and everyone should see the words that are speaking into my heart.
The Bible His Holy words to us Gods love poured out into simple words and phrases that can shape and mold our days our weeks our years our lives.
Bibles sadly laying collecting dust in the corners of peoples torn up empty lives... their hope their future lies in the good news contained between the covers of that dusty old book... if only they would pick it up.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I had a flat tire and my dog ran off in the rain....
I had a flat tire and my dog ran off in the rain....hummm sounds like a country song...but it was my life this morning ...
is it wrong to wish a thunderstorm on your poor dog who ran off to play ? When you know she hates storms...yeah thought so ...sighhh it just didn't start out to be a great day But I am sure once I eat lunch things will improve...I am almost done with this storage closet ...I just need to let go of some "stuff" that I no longer use ... I am so very good at advising others to let it all go just not so good at doing it myself...
ok off to eat lunch keeping my blood sugars on track ...
it makes me a much nicer person...LOL oh yeah and the Dog...miss molly she did come back ...love the smell of wet dog...NOT!
is it wrong to wish a thunderstorm on your poor dog who ran off to play ? When you know she hates storms...yeah thought so ...sighhh it just didn't start out to be a great day But I am sure once I eat lunch things will improve...I am almost done with this storage closet ...I just need to let go of some "stuff" that I no longer use ... I am so very good at advising others to let it all go just not so good at doing it myself...
ok off to eat lunch keeping my blood sugars on track ...
it makes me a much nicer person...LOL oh yeah and the Dog...miss molly she did come back ...love the smell of wet dog...NOT!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Getting things done
Well getting those closets done ...you know the ones I kinda stuffed stuff into --to get the stuff outta boxes...yeah those closets...
I still have to get the basement storage room done -
struggling with the weight thing walking eating right and the scale after the first 7 pounds not budging...sucks really
makes me just want to eat...and eat big ...but I am not.
my blood sugar has been messed up too so maybe that's playing a part in it...all I know is the scale better get moving the right way or I will pitch it out the door ...seriously I will -
oh well been like a walking fool but gonna have to be if I am gonna do the mini next year...ooops did I really just say that?? yeahhh well I am .. who needs big toe nails...
ok thats all I know for now
I still have to get the basement storage room done -
struggling with the weight thing walking eating right and the scale after the first 7 pounds not budging...sucks really
makes me just want to eat...and eat big ...but I am not.
my blood sugar has been messed up too so maybe that's playing a part in it...all I know is the scale better get moving the right way or I will pitch it out the door ...seriously I will -
oh well been like a walking fool but gonna have to be if I am gonna do the mini next year...ooops did I really just say that?? yeahhh well I am .. who needs big toe nails...
ok thats all I know for now
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
out of sorts
I feel out of sorts today but not out of my mind sooo that's good right?
I am not sure why I am out of sorts but have felt this way for a few days...a few weeks ... maybe because I am not turning to food ...maybe because we are doing a spiritual warfare series at church... maybe because as a mom I am still adjusting to the kidlessness of this new life - Jen is still a kid but less kid like everyday.
and how do I complain? I have such an awesome life an awesome hubby an awesome house... and great friends ...tho maybe it is because my friends seem to be moving on to other places ..it is another one of those shifts in life ... in friendships... moving has put me out of sorts it seems ...no neighbor friends...the family thing is still not resolved and soon the fall and winter holidays will be upon us... what I FEEL like is I have no soft place to land...I KNOW that is not truth ...FAITH FACTS FEELINGS... hummm gotta remember that...
I am not sure why I am out of sorts but have felt this way for a few days...a few weeks ... maybe because I am not turning to food ...maybe because we are doing a spiritual warfare series at church... maybe because as a mom I am still adjusting to the kidlessness of this new life - Jen is still a kid but less kid like everyday.
and how do I complain? I have such an awesome life an awesome hubby an awesome house... and great friends ...tho maybe it is because my friends seem to be moving on to other places ..it is another one of those shifts in life ... in friendships... moving has put me out of sorts it seems ...no neighbor friends...the family thing is still not resolved and soon the fall and winter holidays will be upon us... what I FEEL like is I have no soft place to land...I KNOW that is not truth ...FAITH FACTS FEELINGS... hummm gotta remember that...
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Women of Faith
Went to the WOF... and it was good...not great but good...and I think for me the not great part was probably that I am in such a different place then ever in my life. I am no longer in counseling life is hard sometimes but good ...so a lot of what was being talked on was not my issue ...now I am not saying
I don't have issues and there was a couple things that were convicting for sure and I will be taking those things out and un packing them ...but over all it was well different .
In a different time or place in my life I woulda been moved shaken stirred ...but this time not so much. had a good time tho ...just didn't come back all refreshed and jazzed not a mountain top thing...
my kids were all here today for the boys birthdays ...it kinda breaks my heart that our table is so different so stiff now it isn't the same easy thing of fun and laughter that it used to be when it was just us it is different hard Morgan and Lauren and Eric haven't meshed themselves into our fabric of family so there's just awkwardness that I hate ...will it always be this way? I hope not some days I want my babies back I want to call a do over and maybe we wouldn't be in this place now ...but then I guess it could be worse ..so I will keep what I got -and make the best of it -
I don't have issues and there was a couple things that were convicting for sure and I will be taking those things out and un packing them ...but over all it was well different .
In a different time or place in my life I woulda been moved shaken stirred ...but this time not so much. had a good time tho ...just didn't come back all refreshed and jazzed not a mountain top thing...
my kids were all here today for the boys birthdays ...it kinda breaks my heart that our table is so different so stiff now it isn't the same easy thing of fun and laughter that it used to be when it was just us it is different hard Morgan and Lauren and Eric haven't meshed themselves into our fabric of family so there's just awkwardness that I hate ...will it always be this way? I hope not some days I want my babies back I want to call a do over and maybe we wouldn't be in this place now ...but then I guess it could be worse ..so I will keep what I got -and make the best of it -
Sunday, August 02, 2009
cleaning
Finally cleaning and straightning the scrapbooking room closet ...all the things I kinda dumped there coz I had no place eles to put them...
I still have no place but thats ok if it isn't something I REALLY need then out it goes !
I gotta take my own organizing advice ...LOL
of course the first box I pull out has 2 spiders in it yuckkkkk
enough to make me give up and call it a day! BUT I didn't I persivered and now I have emptied a big box! yay me!
I still have no place but thats ok if it isn't something I REALLY need then out it goes !
I gotta take my own organizing advice ...LOL
of course the first box I pull out has 2 spiders in it yuckkkkk
enough to make me give up and call it a day! BUT I didn't I persivered and now I have emptied a big box! yay me!
Friday, July 31, 2009
going going gone......
going to the trailer this weekend - it should be fun bad news is we only get to go Fri and sat - as we have a party to come home for on Sat - and of course Jen teaches Sunday school and I REALLY don't want to miss this weeks sermon the spiritual warfare sermon-
Trailer so many happy memories there - kinda sad going without all the kids but how do we do this with their new found living arrangements?? Humm?
And I am almost finished with my project I am working on so it will be good to be away from it from the computer ...and when we get back it is hit the ground running Jen will have 2-a- days Mon Tues and wed and then she will know on Wed about if she makes the team....such tension and drama...
but for now for today it is trailer time....ahhhh I hear the serenity of it calling my name...the snap and crackle of the fire and the sweet smell of melting chocolate and marsh mellows....yeah that's right i skip the whole graham cracker thing go right for the good stuff!!!
Trailer so many happy memories there - kinda sad going without all the kids but how do we do this with their new found living arrangements?? Humm?
And I am almost finished with my project I am working on so it will be good to be away from it from the computer ...and when we get back it is hit the ground running Jen will have 2-a- days Mon Tues and wed and then she will know on Wed about if she makes the team....such tension and drama...
but for now for today it is trailer time....ahhhh I hear the serenity of it calling my name...the snap and crackle of the fire and the sweet smell of melting chocolate and marsh mellows....yeah that's right i skip the whole graham cracker thing go right for the good stuff!!!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
how do you know???
I have words more words then most people I know I can make a trip for a root canal seem like the funniest thing in the world I can draw you into a story and make you feel like you are there.
But ask me how I know it is a God thing or it is something Evil and the words are not there I can not tell you - I can see it in my head good or evil but I have no words to express it. they say a picture is worth a thousand words and in my mind and in my heart that is true.
how do you know....
How do you know it is God? Well my heart sings it is light it is peace
How can you know it is evil? Well it is dark it is heavy it is ugly -
I feel like I can talk about the God things and it you can maybe get it but truly only a 10th of what is real the rest the 90% is so much BETTER then words -- it is the same with the Evil the Enemy- I can say dark ugly wow if you could have seen the picture of what it was the evil spirit oh gosh dark ugly doesn't come close - it is Stven King on speed-
How do you know....
I just do-
I was asked to describe how do you know something evil and evil spirit or demon has come your way lots of people can say oh I was touched by an angel - my guardian angel was there for me
Not sure how to describe being harrassed by an evil spirit - being touched in the middle of the nigth by a talon...in the middle of my back - #1 how did I know it was a talon I just knew I am not a bird freak but there ya go and I guess how do I know? because the touch brought terror and it was gone in flash with the name of Jesus -
it was not just bad pizza...LOL
But ask me how I know it is a God thing or it is something Evil and the words are not there I can not tell you - I can see it in my head good or evil but I have no words to express it. they say a picture is worth a thousand words and in my mind and in my heart that is true.
how do you know....
How do you know it is God? Well my heart sings it is light it is peace
How can you know it is evil? Well it is dark it is heavy it is ugly -
I feel like I can talk about the God things and it you can maybe get it but truly only a 10th of what is real the rest the 90% is so much BETTER then words -- it is the same with the Evil the Enemy- I can say dark ugly wow if you could have seen the picture of what it was the evil spirit oh gosh dark ugly doesn't come close - it is Stven King on speed-
How do you know....
I just do-
I was asked to describe how do you know something evil and evil spirit or demon has come your way lots of people can say oh I was touched by an angel - my guardian angel was there for me
Not sure how to describe being harrassed by an evil spirit - being touched in the middle of the nigth by a talon...in the middle of my back - #1 how did I know it was a talon I just knew I am not a bird freak but there ya go and I guess how do I know? because the touch brought terror and it was gone in flash with the name of Jesus -
it was not just bad pizza...LOL
Monday, July 27, 2009
I am a junkie....
a TLC junkie....shoot I am a tv junkie period!! LOL
So many TV shows so little time!!
all the reality shows little people ...fat people ...messy people...reproductive people...LOL
ohh and when I am not watching TLS I am onto HGTV...LOL
ok I seriously need a life!
So many TV shows so little time!!
all the reality shows little people ...fat people ...messy people...reproductive people...LOL
ohh and when I am not watching TLS I am onto HGTV...LOL
ok I seriously need a life!
hummm
Checking into copyrights gonna get the poems copyrighted...
it is really very easy the process... just not so easy letting go of them.
Renouncing the fear tho - God is in this work so how can I go wrong> hummm?
it is really very easy the process... just not so easy letting go of them.
Renouncing the fear tho - God is in this work so how can I go wrong> hummm?
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Rainnnnnnn
Ok so it has only reained a little bit ...well all day really and I am so tired of it! Why? becasue I have nothing to read!! LOL if I had a good book then I could snuggle in and read .
Sighhhh oh well
Right now I am waiting on my FP Bible study group to get here for our summer meeting...
I am also still waiting on my Pampered Chef order!! it should be here tomorrow....
Have I ever said I was good at waiting?? I think NOT!
Sighhhh oh well
Right now I am waiting on my FP Bible study group to get here for our summer meeting...
I am also still waiting on my Pampered Chef order!! it should be here tomorrow....
Have I ever said I was good at waiting?? I think NOT!
Monday, July 20, 2009
rumbling grumbling....
why can no one replace the toilet paper but me?? people do we need lessons on this simpe task? And what about the loading and unloading of the dishwasher is so darn hard may I ask?? hummm???
I have been on a reading frenzey which is probably because I am hiding from something ...hummm what could it be...the pain of my son not calling? I know Josh is all full of himself and his bigness...but hello??? Didn't he get so mad at Jeremy when he did this very same thing? of course different when it is himself I suppose ...
And the Rick thing letting it go ...giving it to the Lord...
meanwhile I have read thru 8 books maybe?? ok 1 1/2 on the trip the rest here read one yesterday ...
I probably need to hit my knees and go to the Lord -- I guess the good thing is reading aint eating ,...but it is still avoidence...
on the up side ...I am loving my house -
sighhh it is good
I have been on a reading frenzey which is probably because I am hiding from something ...hummm what could it be...the pain of my son not calling? I know Josh is all full of himself and his bigness...but hello??? Didn't he get so mad at Jeremy when he did this very same thing? of course different when it is himself I suppose ...
And the Rick thing letting it go ...giving it to the Lord...
meanwhile I have read thru 8 books maybe?? ok 1 1/2 on the trip the rest here read one yesterday ...
I probably need to hit my knees and go to the Lord -- I guess the good thing is reading aint eating ,...but it is still avoidence...
on the up side ...I am loving my house -
sighhh it is good
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
July and at long last vacation!!!
Today Scott and I are leaving for Shipshewanna IN the land of Amish and fried chicken!! LOL I am so looking forward to the huge flea market and the laid back life!
Jen is off on her mission trip and everyone else is busy working! All the kids who can not wait to be grown ups are now finding it isn't all that glamorous! Work work work...LOL
We tried to get some family issues resolved yesterday or if not resolved then clarified...but Beth was not "ready" to discus it -
And Rick seemed clueless as always - We are still holding his feet to the fire on this issue and will not back down . Until he seeks change in his behaviors we will not be part of his life - nor will my children. yesterday was the first I have seen him in 7 months wierd really- but in all honesty it has been good for me to not be subjected to his comments and such .My heart goes out to Beth but living in the sea of denial is not a good place to be. oh well ...
we are unpacked and loving our new digs. Scott said if we couldteach Molly Room service we could just stay here!! LOL But off to shipshy !
Jen is off on her mission trip and everyone else is busy working! All the kids who can not wait to be grown ups are now finding it isn't all that glamorous! Work work work...LOL
We tried to get some family issues resolved yesterday or if not resolved then clarified...but Beth was not "ready" to discus it -
And Rick seemed clueless as always - We are still holding his feet to the fire on this issue and will not back down . Until he seeks change in his behaviors we will not be part of his life - nor will my children. yesterday was the first I have seen him in 7 months wierd really- but in all honesty it has been good for me to not be subjected to his comments and such .My heart goes out to Beth but living in the sea of denial is not a good place to be. oh well ...
we are unpacked and loving our new digs. Scott said if we couldteach Molly Room service we could just stay here!! LOL But off to shipshy !
Thursday, June 18, 2009
New house
well we are moved in it has been crazy busy and oh soo tiring...worn out hardly covers it!! LOL
Getting used to the new house trying to set some new rules for Jen on eating in odd places...she is not getting it so going ot have to sit down and spell it out,
I am so tired of picking up after her and at 15 no reason I should have to.
there that is a mom rant!
as scott said we need to finish up the last 10% so it doesn't drag on.
I went ot swim yesterday that was fab-- hoping ot make it back today
ok well thats all for now!
Getting used to the new house trying to set some new rules for Jen on eating in odd places...she is not getting it so going ot have to sit down and spell it out,
I am so tired of picking up after her and at 15 no reason I should have to.
there that is a mom rant!
as scott said we need to finish up the last 10% so it doesn't drag on.
I went ot swim yesterday that was fab-- hoping ot make it back today
ok well thats all for now!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
wow long time no blog!
well so much has happend in the last few weeks! life has been so crazy no time to think! Well both boys have graduated ,,,it was VERY close for Jeremy - wasn't sure he was going to! We got the house painted and the carpet in - still a lot of small things to do besides packing this house -
jen starts drivers ed so today was spent getting her permit and stuff...
we get the bedroom furniture tomorrow so I can get the bedrooms decorated -- So at least that will be done when we move!
Still need to clean out my drawers and closet. here in old house
Almost got the dining room all packed ...sighhh it scares me to pack the good china-- I am so afraid it will get broken,,,
ok well there ya go ...
jen starts drivers ed so today was spent getting her permit and stuff...
we get the bedroom furniture tomorrow so I can get the bedrooms decorated -- So at least that will be done when we move!
Still need to clean out my drawers and closet. here in old house
Almost got the dining room all packed ...sighhh it scares me to pack the good china-- I am so afraid it will get broken,,,
ok well there ya go ...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
BUSY
wow so much to do in the next few weeks!
paint colors to choose and a few new things for the house. Thank goodness not too much to shop for -while it would be fun it is also exhausting!
Got the boys graduation thing too ...haven't done much on that other then buying some decorations...LOL
Today tho is mothers day...a break --ha - yeah well some time soon there will be a break!
ok off to Church - love worshipping my Lord!
paint colors to choose and a few new things for the house. Thank goodness not too much to shop for -while it would be fun it is also exhausting!
Got the boys graduation thing too ...haven't done much on that other then buying some decorations...LOL
Today tho is mothers day...a break --ha - yeah well some time soon there will be a break!
ok off to Church - love worshipping my Lord!
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
the new house
it is very exciting we got the keys yesterday - now the fun begins! picking out paint colors -carpeting for the main level , deciding what furniture goes where and what we need to get - new bedding for us and Jen a new crate for molly-- actually not sure where molly is going...LOL this house is so open no little hidden nook for her cage to be tout of the way!
I cant wait to post pics of the house!
after 17 years it will be so weird to go home someplace else!
gotta get the boys graduation invitations out ,,,
so much to do!
LOL
I cant wait to post pics of the house!
after 17 years it will be so weird to go home someplace else!
gotta get the boys graduation invitations out ,,,
so much to do!
LOL
Friday, April 10, 2009
Surrender
John 19:30 When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.
Jesus GAVE up His spirit - his job was finished he surrendered all to His Father God and surrendered His life for me.
He Jesus part man part God humbeled Himself and laid down His life for me
No one took it from Him He Bowed His head and gave up His Spirit - it was the right time His job was done - the last thing for Him to do was to BOW His head - and give it up.
His PERFECT obedience
So where is my obedience ...
Jesus GAVE up His spirit - his job was finished he surrendered all to His Father God and surrendered His life for me.
He Jesus part man part God humbeled Himself and laid down His life for me
No one took it from Him He Bowed His head and gave up His Spirit - it was the right time His job was done - the last thing for Him to do was to BOW His head - and give it up.
His PERFECT obedience
So where is my obedience ...
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