Went to the WOF... and it was good...not great but good...and I think for me the not great part was probably that I am in such a different place then ever in my life. I am no longer in counseling life is hard sometimes but good ...so a lot of what was being talked on was not my issue ...now I am not saying
I don't have issues and there was a couple things that were convicting for sure and I will be taking those things out and un packing them ...but over all it was well different .
In a different time or place in my life I woulda been moved shaken stirred ...but this time not so much. had a good time tho ...just didn't come back all refreshed and jazzed not a mountain top thing...
my kids were all here today for the boys birthdays ...it kinda breaks my heart that our table is so different so stiff now it isn't the same easy thing of fun and laughter that it used to be when it was just us it is different hard Morgan and Lauren and Eric haven't meshed themselves into our fabric of family so there's just awkwardness that I hate ...will it always be this way? I hope not some days I want my babies back I want to call a do over and maybe we wouldn't be in this place now ...but then I guess it could be worse ..so I will keep what I got -and make the best of it -
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