Jesus Vomit = Luke warm Christians....

yeahhhh so Reading the Crazy Love and the Chapter on lukewarm Christians and realizing if we are not passionately living for Him and willing to give up things that are important for HIM then we are lukewarm Christians... and yes that's me too ,.,, how many times do I feel His nudging about prayer or reading scripture or even calling someone to give encouragement but I don't want to I would rather Facebook or watch TV or read a book or or or...yeah i can come up with a thousand different things to do .

This week I quit Bible Study Fellowship because I don't think that BSF is where God wants me and it was hard there is a Tuesday group at our church so I felt like I should go there and today I did. They are doing Beth Moore study on David awesome love Beth Moore love David so it's all good right? yeahhh I did the 4 weeks of study in one day (ya know Beth Moore studies are like dog years compared to other studies 4 weeks that's 20 days worth of stuff in 7 hours... WHO KNEW??!! that I could work like that! ) and I got caught up with the exception of the videos and was so darn excited to go to class and hear what God had for us today in this work I mean come on it is DAVID!! And no it was weak in insipid - oh The video was great but we might as well have done no discussion we practically didn't do any at all... I left the church crying out to God----REALLY GOD??? THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO INSTEAD OF BSF? SERIOUSLY?? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS?? WHAT IS IT YOU WANT FROM ME IN THIS?

And there is the crux of it He wants my obedience it is not for me to like it it is not for me to figure it all out in this one thing it is for me to say ok Lord you are God you got this you just need me to be there if you are going to work thru me and in me I gotta be there .

So yeah I did 4 weeks in 1 day but that really ? was my fault God told me last May I was not to do BSF and to do this Tuesday study I didn't listen i was not obedient so if that's what I needed to do there's no joy in the doing that it was hard and I could hardly see last night !

So today I am practicing my obedience walk and today I am in this Bible study...And next week ...well who knows what next week will bring .... I just gotta show up.