yup I am at the 6 months mark...of no sugar no compulsive eating...how has it changed my life?
hummm that's a great question and what I can see is some of the craziness that comes from sugar highs and lows is gone that the numbed out feeling when a crisis comes a knocking is gone and left in it's place is the emotions of life.
the feelings that I thought would surly kill me now pop up with regularity and splash across my life with big drips of color- blue for sadness~ orange for pain ~red for anger ~pink for embarrassment~ purple for happiness and black for depression ~gray for shame ~
my rainbow of feelings comes softly at times and in torrents like a hard thunderstorm at others ... sometimes it is quiet and hardly noticeable and at other times the colors of life's feelings leave me shaking and scared ...what color is fear ? yellow maybe ...not like a coward but yellow like fire -yellow molten fire like the sun- fear that burns my life..fear of failure, fear of not being enough, fear of whats next in my life. yellow should be a happy color instead it is the color of molten fire because the way a fire feeds on the kindling and wood is how fear feeds on my life it starts out small and can rage in minutes. Taking away my peace my serenity.
6 months of food sobriety ...6 months of handling life's pains and joys and sorrows without food to buffer the feelings.
6 months of food sobriety ...it is good.
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