urrrggghhh

ok saying this now because I DO NOT want my new Year bogged down with it - I am so putting him behind me this year of 2010---

Talked with dad and Rick is not has not gotten any help for his problem - he went to a Class the va held for depression but due his not being a war time vet or lack of interest or whatever - the guy got reassigned and the class was canceled - Rick doesn't have the money to go on his own oh PLEASEEEEEE cancel your cable that would pay for one or 2 a month there are places who work with you on income I am sure if you went in and told them you are an old child molester / active sexual predator they would fit you in somewhere... but going for treatment of depression by its self not gonna stop anything- And He is back at the church working the sound booth working with the kids when they sing,,, Pastor Mike knows who and what he is so now it would be on him -

ok so what does this mean for me ? I am not worrying about him not being in the family so to speak it is HIS problem - It is not me being mean or whatever it is his problem he needs to take care of it.

I will be praying for the Lords peace in this I know I can do nothing to reclaim my childhood - to redeem my childhood and the years in between of walking on a ledge living with him in my life are finished done - He has made his choice I am just abiding by his choices.