well today the certificate came showing the copyright of the survivors tears survivors joys... wow -
I think it makes them real...I am not sure ...why..
anyway it is they are and that's that...
Camping was great ...can we call it camping since we were at the trailer?? LOL not sure ..but I really enjoy that group of girls.
I am looking at this scrapbooking room and realizing I must do some cleaning up and out this room becomes a don't know where else to put it out it there room...LOL
and my lovely daughter at this computer doesn't help either!! she is a bit of a slob...
Jen gets her drivers license this week if it all works out time wise - not sure how i am feeling bout that on one hand it will be a relief to not have to spend so much time in the car waiting but on the other hand sheeshh it puts me out of a job and it was nice all the reading I got done in that waiting time!!
ok well thats all I got today
Monday, April 26, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
whooo Hooo
I got the poems copyrighted ...
I do not know why that is so important for me..
to me but it is ...
and I am happy. :)
I do not know why that is so important for me..
to me but it is ...
and I am happy. :)
the food poems...
Food as a hammer pounding my soul
Beating me down swallowing me whole
Damage and destruction that swirls thru the night
Shredding my heart too devastated to fight
Letting the food demons take over my life
Giving them reign and a powerful knife
They use it to cut me and feed on my pain
Giving them my power to serve as their grain
Distorting my focus distorting my view
Leading me astray from what is true
Food like a beast with its power and might
Riding me astride like a warrior knight
Using hatred and fear as a shield from the Lord
Then came Jesus blood over me it was poured
And poof they were gone the hammers knives and shields
The demons couldn’t stand up to the power Jesus wields
My soul was saved by His sanctifying grace
I have been saved because He took my place.~~~
© kimshepherd2009
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Food dark – sharp like a knife
Hurting cutting messing up my life
Food that you eat but do not taste
Pounds that hide and bury my waist
Binging on food so no one can see
The pain and anguish of being me
Using the food to kill the pain
Eating food then puking down the drain
Food having a life of its very own making
Food owning me – my soul there for the taking
Focused on the food so the hate I can’t see
The hate that is slowly overtaking me
Hate for them who damaged my heart
Hate for myself who let them take part
Calling to Jesus to see me through this
Praying to Jesus from the dark abyss
Seeking deliverance needing His grace
The hate is gone without a trace
The food is put back in its rightful position
Healing has come from the true physician
I am free of the sins and deadly lies
The Lord has heard and heeded my cries.~~~
© kimshepherd2009
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It’s the woman in the mirror
What she sees is not too clear
That food has become her choice of drug
No not heroin or wine it’s not beer she hugs
It is chocolate and greasy burgers and fries
That is the way this woman gets high
She stands at the fridge hearing the call
She eats and she eats till she can’t feel at all
The pain of her life is amazingly clear
The cries of her heart that nobody hears
Her answer to the pain is the food in her hands
She doesn’t think anyone else understands
Money no object – the money she spends
Hoping the next fix brings the pain to an end
But at the end of the binge she feels the same pain
That’s when she takes it to the drain
Purging her body purging her soul
Waiting until the next urge takes hold
She doesn’t seek Jesus she doesn’t look to God
This woman of faith don’t you think it is odd?
She talks of His glory, His healing, His Love
But when she is in trouble she doesn’t look above
Oh woman ask Jesus to stand in the gap to pick up your slack
To be your comfort, your joy, your strength that you lack
He will heal your heart- fill your soul
Only Jesus can make you whole.~~~~
© kimshepherd2009
Beating me down swallowing me whole
Damage and destruction that swirls thru the night
Shredding my heart too devastated to fight
Letting the food demons take over my life
Giving them reign and a powerful knife
They use it to cut me and feed on my pain
Giving them my power to serve as their grain
Distorting my focus distorting my view
Leading me astray from what is true
Food like a beast with its power and might
Riding me astride like a warrior knight
Using hatred and fear as a shield from the Lord
Then came Jesus blood over me it was poured
And poof they were gone the hammers knives and shields
The demons couldn’t stand up to the power Jesus wields
My soul was saved by His sanctifying grace
I have been saved because He took my place.~~~
© kimshepherd2009
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Food dark – sharp like a knife
Hurting cutting messing up my life
Food that you eat but do not taste
Pounds that hide and bury my waist
Binging on food so no one can see
The pain and anguish of being me
Using the food to kill the pain
Eating food then puking down the drain
Food having a life of its very own making
Food owning me – my soul there for the taking
Focused on the food so the hate I can’t see
The hate that is slowly overtaking me
Hate for them who damaged my heart
Hate for myself who let them take part
Calling to Jesus to see me through this
Praying to Jesus from the dark abyss
Seeking deliverance needing His grace
The hate is gone without a trace
The food is put back in its rightful position
Healing has come from the true physician
I am free of the sins and deadly lies
The Lord has heard and heeded my cries.~~~
© kimshepherd2009
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It’s the woman in the mirror
What she sees is not too clear
That food has become her choice of drug
No not heroin or wine it’s not beer she hugs
It is chocolate and greasy burgers and fries
That is the way this woman gets high
She stands at the fridge hearing the call
She eats and she eats till she can’t feel at all
The pain of her life is amazingly clear
The cries of her heart that nobody hears
Her answer to the pain is the food in her hands
She doesn’t think anyone else understands
Money no object – the money she spends
Hoping the next fix brings the pain to an end
But at the end of the binge she feels the same pain
That’s when she takes it to the drain
Purging her body purging her soul
Waiting until the next urge takes hold
She doesn’t seek Jesus she doesn’t look to God
This woman of faith don’t you think it is odd?
She talks of His glory, His healing, His Love
But when she is in trouble she doesn’t look above
Oh woman ask Jesus to stand in the gap to pick up your slack
To be your comfort, your joy, your strength that you lack
He will heal your heart- fill your soul
Only Jesus can make you whole.~~~~
© kimshepherd2009
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
things that are in my brain...
~~~I got up this morning and my left side of my mouth was still swollen and kinda numb from the dental work yesterday ...ahhh little bit scary to think maybe she hit a nerve and this is it LOL it went down... everyone asks how do you like your new teeth ..I think I want to bite people!! LOL just kidding!~~~
~~~yesterday I went ot BSF fellowship and was a bit nervous at the thought of sitting at the table with cookies or brownies ..(ok not the people the food yeah I know~! LOL) anyway God is so good to me Cindy served lemon bars! YIKES! hahaha I HATE lemon bars I am sooo thankful Cindy had lemon bars!~~~~
~~~ we have been redoing the trailer and I need to fill the picture college frames with trailer pics...sighhh it is tedious work..the trailer looks great tho kinda exciting for going down and seeing something new! I'll have pics to post after this weekend! ~~~~~~
~~~ Still doing the OA thing I guess I will always be doing the OA thing -- LOL - went to a retreat last weekend - it was really cool . Course I am a retreat kinda girl - but there was no sweets involved and I got to get a bit more familiar with the OA program and that's helpful.~~~~~
~~~~ Compulsive eating is a disease thats tough to wrap my brain around I have been told my whole life it was something I could control obviously thats not the truth or I woulda by now...being the control freak I can be.. So to see it as a disease makes it a bit more harsh I guess a little daunting to think it is something there is no real cure for that like the cigarettes that I still think about occasionally(after 20 years as a non smoker...) this food thing will also be with me my whole rest of my life sighhhh oh well it is always something I guess... there are ways of fighting this thing and I guess thats what I have to concentrate on doing my step work and using the OA tools....~~~~~
~~~yesterday I went ot BSF fellowship and was a bit nervous at the thought of sitting at the table with cookies or brownies ..(ok not the people the food yeah I know~! LOL) anyway God is so good to me Cindy served lemon bars! YIKES! hahaha I HATE lemon bars I am sooo thankful Cindy had lemon bars!~~~~
~~~ we have been redoing the trailer and I need to fill the picture college frames with trailer pics...sighhh it is tedious work..the trailer looks great tho kinda exciting for going down and seeing something new! I'll have pics to post after this weekend! ~~~~~~
~~~ Still doing the OA thing I guess I will always be doing the OA thing -- LOL - went to a retreat last weekend - it was really cool . Course I am a retreat kinda girl - but there was no sweets involved and I got to get a bit more familiar with the OA program and that's helpful.~~~~~
~~~~ Compulsive eating is a disease thats tough to wrap my brain around I have been told my whole life it was something I could control obviously thats not the truth or I woulda by now...being the control freak I can be.. So to see it as a disease makes it a bit more harsh I guess a little daunting to think it is something there is no real cure for that like the cigarettes that I still think about occasionally(after 20 years as a non smoker...) this food thing will also be with me my whole rest of my life sighhhh oh well it is always something I guess... there are ways of fighting this thing and I guess thats what I have to concentrate on doing my step work and using the OA tools....~~~~~
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I am not the maid....
I know I am the one who is home and it is my job to clean but REALLY ? is it my job to clean toothpaste off of the cabinet doors or the bedroom window because you choose random places to brush your teeth?? If you spill something on the nice wooden floors and no one see's you...IT IS STILL THERE ...it counts! It stays there until SOMEONE cleans it up couldn't you just stop and do it when it happens???
News flash people dishes cups and banana peels have NO feet therefore you can not expect them to make their own way to the kitchen or the trash cans... not happinin
If you vacuum and don't move the pencils on the floor that oh by the way are YOURS...it means you didn't really vacuum....
Scott and I are contem[plating buying a Kirby vacuum but really I don't want to be the maid I want a maid!!!
News flash people dishes cups and banana peels have NO feet therefore you can not expect them to make their own way to the kitchen or the trash cans... not happinin
If you vacuum and don't move the pencils on the floor that oh by the way are YOURS...it means you didn't really vacuum....
Scott and I are contem[plating buying a Kirby vacuum but really I don't want to be the maid I want a maid!!!
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
goin outta my head....
WOW ..ya know when you are no longer eating in response to anxiety or stress or anger or boredom or the fact that the sky is blue or because the sky is NOT blue ...uggghhhhh it's freakin awful...except for the fact that the Lord is here and with me and in me and I am turning to Him instead of the food which is as it should be ,. But sadly He is not my first choice... sighhh I mean He is but old habits would be the food the chocolate ...And right now I feel like a junkie who is wanting a fix so badly that I swear my teeth hurt...
I am out of TAB for in the morning but theres NO way I can go to the store and get them without succumbing to the candy aisle. So in the morning when I hope it is safer for me I will get them.
And that is the life of an addiction
I am out of TAB for in the morning but theres NO way I can go to the store and get them without succumbing to the candy aisle. So in the morning when I hope it is safer for me I will get them.
And that is the life of an addiction
Friday, February 26, 2010
one day at a time
went to an OA meeting today
some thoughts on that...
1st- they really do say-- my name is...and say it over and over their name and their problem lest you forget -this isn't a social meeting it is for people with problems.
2ndly - people in OA are not all fat people. oh no there are people in that room you would never guess to have problems with food -just like alcoholics and other addictions you can look "good" look "normal" and still have a problem
3rdly- the people in that room are perhaps the kindest non judging people I have ever seen.And it had nothing to do with anything I said or how I was dressed it had only to do with that fact I was in that room we all were for the same purpose to overcome addiction
4thly- to admit you are powerless to stop something feels like defeat but reality it is success because you see John 8:38 "the truth will set you free" is real
hi my name is Kim and I am a compulsive overeater.
some thoughts on that...
1st- they really do say-- my name is...and say it over and over their name and their problem lest you forget -this isn't a social meeting it is for people with problems.
2ndly - people in OA are not all fat people. oh no there are people in that room you would never guess to have problems with food -just like alcoholics and other addictions you can look "good" look "normal" and still have a problem
3rdly- the people in that room are perhaps the kindest non judging people I have ever seen.And it had nothing to do with anything I said or how I was dressed it had only to do with that fact I was in that room we all were for the same purpose to overcome addiction
4thly- to admit you are powerless to stop something feels like defeat but reality it is success because you see John 8:38 "the truth will set you free" is real
hi my name is Kim and I am a compulsive overeater.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
loving Jesus
I really Love Him my Lord and Savior -
just wanted to say that...LOL
Oh my gosh I am SO sick of this blasted snow - I want color in my life no let me rephrase this I need Color in my life I need warmth and plenty of Sunshine!
I am procrastinating taking the rugs out to shake them in the cold...brrrrrrr and I am in the middle of cleaning house but ..really it isn't the same without throwing open a window or two!!! Ok as you can tell I am longing for Spring time!
I am picturing the newly green grass and the trees with their buds bursting forth in color and soft green leaves the flowers coming up from the ground the oranges yellows pinks purples the tall grassy grasses blowing in the soft winds of spring - ahhhh birds chirping
the blue skies with wispy white clouds floating above as we sing praises to the Lord who is the Lord of creation and the Lord of us all...
just wanted to say that...LOL
Oh my gosh I am SO sick of this blasted snow - I want color in my life no let me rephrase this I need Color in my life I need warmth and plenty of Sunshine!
I am procrastinating taking the rugs out to shake them in the cold...brrrrrrr and I am in the middle of cleaning house but ..really it isn't the same without throwing open a window or two!!! Ok as you can tell I am longing for Spring time!
I am picturing the newly green grass and the trees with their buds bursting forth in color and soft green leaves the flowers coming up from the ground the oranges yellows pinks purples the tall grassy grasses blowing in the soft winds of spring - ahhhh birds chirping
the blue skies with wispy white clouds floating above as we sing praises to the Lord who is the Lord of creation and the Lord of us all...
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Ash wednesday....
the beginning of the Lenten season -- it is a time of reflection and repentance - a time to ask the Lord to show you what you need to change -- what sin in your life is keeping you from a closer walk with the Lord.
When starting this blog my thought was to be flat out honest in what I write it is hard sometimes because several people read this and that maybe it is safer to hide my REAL emotions and feelings from some of those people -- but if this can not be flat out honest blog then whats the point really..??
So here goes ...in my searching of myself in this Lenten season in the bible study I am in -Beth Moore's - Breaking Free- I am seeing Gods call for me to break free of my addiction - my addiction to food not a big surprise - heck it is all over me- front back hips arms ...but really to break free to be delivered from this addiction - I know it is possible --for all things are possible thru Christ Jesus --I have talked alot about diets about exercise about diet about exercise did I tell you about the latest diet attempt? yeah lots of talk and some action for a few weeks then back into the addiction I go - This has been a long time addiction - at one time in my life food was comfort food was a friend food was protection food was my god...yes my idol ... if I was sad hurt abused happy bored whatever- food was there - Food my friend my god my demon
I have cleared out so much of the junk from the past but I had no idea I couldn't just stop with this food thing - why can't I really? it is so simple according to most - just eat better - excersise more don't buy the wrong foods..yeah if it was only so easy-
I was in denial to think this isn't an addiction- like drinking drugs gambling it the food takes over my life I eat when I am not hungry if there is candy here in my house I can do nothing --think of nothing until it is gone consumed in a flash , hungry or not doesn't really matter - I gotta have it. I can not control it - it controls me - each bite is the last bite until moments later I gotta get another and another until it is GONE.
So how do i get deliverance from this ? I must SURRENDER to HIM -I must turn to Him- This is gonna be hard and I can't do it without Him - I have been delivered from so much I have been healed from so much How can I NOT believe He will heal me of this? Of course He will.
I need to go thru the steps yes there is a 12 step program for over eaters - but this is more then just ""over eating"" it is obsession it is addiction - food has been my god little g - I have placed food in the position of God (big G) it is time to make Jesus my true Master and not chocolate-Surrender to Him-- He has to be my all in all...
So there it is in all it's fat uglyness...I am so tired of being controlled by this addiction -
When starting this blog my thought was to be flat out honest in what I write it is hard sometimes because several people read this and that maybe it is safer to hide my REAL emotions and feelings from some of those people -- but if this can not be flat out honest blog then whats the point really..??
So here goes ...in my searching of myself in this Lenten season in the bible study I am in -Beth Moore's - Breaking Free- I am seeing Gods call for me to break free of my addiction - my addiction to food not a big surprise - heck it is all over me- front back hips arms ...but really to break free to be delivered from this addiction - I know it is possible --for all things are possible thru Christ Jesus --I have talked alot about diets about exercise about diet about exercise did I tell you about the latest diet attempt? yeah lots of talk and some action for a few weeks then back into the addiction I go - This has been a long time addiction - at one time in my life food was comfort food was a friend food was protection food was my god...yes my idol ... if I was sad hurt abused happy bored whatever- food was there - Food my friend my god my demon
I have cleared out so much of the junk from the past but I had no idea I couldn't just stop with this food thing - why can't I really? it is so simple according to most - just eat better - excersise more don't buy the wrong foods..yeah if it was only so easy-
I was in denial to think this isn't an addiction- like drinking drugs gambling it the food takes over my life I eat when I am not hungry if there is candy here in my house I can do nothing --think of nothing until it is gone consumed in a flash , hungry or not doesn't really matter - I gotta have it. I can not control it - it controls me - each bite is the last bite until moments later I gotta get another and another until it is GONE.
So how do i get deliverance from this ? I must SURRENDER to HIM -I must turn to Him- This is gonna be hard and I can't do it without Him - I have been delivered from so much I have been healed from so much How can I NOT believe He will heal me of this? Of course He will.
I need to go thru the steps yes there is a 12 step program for over eaters - but this is more then just ""over eating"" it is obsession it is addiction - food has been my god little g - I have placed food in the position of God (big G) it is time to make Jesus my true Master and not chocolate-Surrender to Him-- He has to be my all in all...
So there it is in all it's fat uglyness...I am so tired of being controlled by this addiction -
Saturday, February 06, 2010
Monday, February 01, 2010
wonderful weekend
had an awesome weekend scrapbooking!
I love my friends! I have GREAT friends!
And I am sitting here typing listening to Molly do the deep snore- she must have missed me much as she is sleeping down here next to my chair and not up on my comfy bed ! Awww she is so sweet!
I need to do my BSF and my Beth Moore-- yikes got a Girl Scout meeting tonight and a trustee meeting ...
life in the fastlane !
I love my friends! I have GREAT friends!
And I am sitting here typing listening to Molly do the deep snore- she must have missed me much as she is sleeping down here next to my chair and not up on my comfy bed ! Awww she is so sweet!
I need to do my BSF and my Beth Moore-- yikes got a Girl Scout meeting tonight and a trustee meeting ...
life in the fastlane !
Friday, January 29, 2010
sheeeshhhh
OK wow dealing once again with these adults who want to be cool to teens. what is it with these people??
I refuse to be lenient in these matters we were once before and let stuff go until it built to exploding -- never never again . I will cut them off cut them out -
I mean REALLY offering alcohol to minors... Done - no leniency You are done!
We want to be careful of our examples, because people are following us; and we don't want to lead them into sin by overt acts of sin
Lets try to be exceptional Christan's not marginal ones!
I refuse to be lenient in these matters we were once before and let stuff go until it built to exploding -- never never again . I will cut them off cut them out -
I mean REALLY offering alcohol to minors... Done - no leniency You are done!
We want to be careful of our examples, because people are following us; and we don't want to lead them into sin by overt acts of sin
Lets try to be exceptional Christan's not marginal ones!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
tra lalalala
Family at Christmas see how it is growing! Josh Lauren Jeremy Morgan Eric Jes Jen me and Scott
that's how I feel today it is Thursday on a upcoming scrapbooking weekend! yeah baby!
I really would like to be someplace warm tho so I could get out my new camera and play ...
I haven't used it much it is a little more techie then the other one and I never got that one all the down!
I just don't know where all the time goes! From 8-3 it speeds by! I was thinking today I would get my Beth Moore Bible study caught up since I have to miss this Sat I haven't made it a priority and then do some of my BSF... I have read ahead in the Bible reading series the church is doing and it is already 10:30...sighhh
I am going to go do my walk kick and stretch out my muscles - then start on the closet cleaning up ..just some minor maintnence to keep my hubby happy..I knew it would be touchy sharing a closet with him...haha
I guess get all the house laundry crap done so tomorrow it is just excerisise pack and go...
it is very cold out yet I almost can pretend it is spring there are birdies outside my scrapbooking room window so if I do not look out and see the snow we can maybe pretend it is warm!! HA! of course maybe the birdies are out there saying hey lady let me in it's freezing cold out here!!! ha
Friday, January 22, 2010
feeling better
I am feeling much better -tho my gums are still swollen still can not chew -
But mentally feeling better - even without the sunshine !
I got the house cleaned up maybe that also helps
seems like it has been a mess since forever...with Christmas and all -
Now I got to work on the computer / scrapbooking room it is a pit - got to get my gear packed for next weekend -
I am happy about that-- going to hotel in Columbus scrapping for 3 days!
come on Jan 29th!! Whoot!
But mentally feeling better - even without the sunshine !
I got the house cleaned up maybe that also helps
seems like it has been a mess since forever...with Christmas and all -
Now I got to work on the computer / scrapbooking room it is a pit - got to get my gear packed for next weekend -
I am happy about that-- going to hotel in Columbus scrapping for 3 days!
come on Jan 29th!! Whoot!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
foggy
I swear I am in a fog...can't get my brain thinking maybe it is depression maybe it is hormonal ... seems like since last year when all the crap hit with Rick and Morgan and Jeremy and such my mind has been slush I know it was a lot to deal with and go thru and then adding a move into the mix but now it is 2010 and I need to get on with things but everything piles up I do not have enough day in my time or time in my day...
Even Spiritually I am struggling at times ...
I have come so far I can't go backwards now...
Jesus is the answer to my life So I guess I need to go back to the basics
Thank you Lord for all you have done and continue to do in my life -
Even Spiritually I am struggling at times ...
I have come so far I can't go backwards now...
Jesus is the answer to my life So I guess I need to go back to the basics
Thank you Lord for all you have done and continue to do in my life -
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
disheartning
wow today well last night I guess found out that my nice Chrissy is now a Muslim...she is practicing the religion of Islam...how weird! She was raised in the church she is married to the son of a pastor who by the way her husband (the son of a pastor) is totally supporting her in this ..WHAT?? yeah crazy this boy also was feeling the call to be a pastor but now not so much
Chrissy is wearing a hjib(sp?) which is the head covering ...So she is out there with this
the hardest part is reconciling that she is renouncing Jesus as her Lord and Savior the Bible is pretty clear that this is a big No NO
You don't do that -- And while she is young these are eternal mistakes she is making . CRAZINESS i tell you -
And now for me I gotta back away and let it be - I said my piece on it she knows where I stand - Jesus is the way the truth and the life no one goes to the Father except thru Him -
So get back to my own life and leave her to her drama of shock and awe...
Chrissy is wearing a hjib(sp?) which is the head covering ...So she is out there with this
the hardest part is reconciling that she is renouncing Jesus as her Lord and Savior the Bible is pretty clear that this is a big No NO
You don't do that -- And while she is young these are eternal mistakes she is making . CRAZINESS i tell you -
And now for me I gotta back away and let it be - I said my piece on it she knows where I stand - Jesus is the way the truth and the life no one goes to the Father except thru Him -
So get back to my own life and leave her to her drama of shock and awe...
Sunday, January 10, 2010
not ready for bed
I SHOULD probably go on to bed but I am just not ready - the last Christmas celebration is done- we had Christmas with my mom and her brother and my kids - well Jes didn't come -but the rest were here - I find that hard to get used to the fact that my kids don't come to things or come but don't stay It is just a fact I suppose of them growing up and growing out so to speak -
I am supposed to get the posts for the implants in my mouth this week I hope i do not look like I have been beat up when it is all done-
We are starting a new Bible study Beth Moore Breaking Free and I thought hum wonder what I have to break free from well duh how bout food Kim and then Dan's Sermon today lots of thinking to do on these things the Lord isn't playing around here He is serious ...
I need to be serious about it to.
ok Lord I am all Ears I am listening I am hearing I am seeing I am feeling ...
I am supposed to get the posts for the implants in my mouth this week I hope i do not look like I have been beat up when it is all done-
We are starting a new Bible study Beth Moore Breaking Free and I thought hum wonder what I have to break free from well duh how bout food Kim and then Dan's Sermon today lots of thinking to do on these things the Lord isn't playing around here He is serious ...
I need to be serious about it to.
ok Lord I am all Ears I am listening I am hearing I am seeing I am feeling ...
Thursday, January 07, 2010
oh my Cold weather and comfort food
all day it has been a battle to eat eat eat --
I am not hungry just want to eat. I am sure
it is the snow the cold the comfort but food
isn't a blanket seriously
I need to STOP-look to the Lord
I am not hungry just want to eat. I am sure
it is the snow the cold the comfort but food
isn't a blanket seriously
I need to STOP-look to the Lord
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Getting things done in 2010
ok I know it has only been 2010 for about 3 minutes..LOL BUT I am working to get things done in 2010- I am walking and trying to keep the house up not like at the same time LOL But getting this life of mine out of His wilderness and into His work is harder then I thought I have not been as obedient as needed so the changes HE wants me to make are not happining as fast as they should have Sorry Lord -
So hitting my knees more in 2010 - working on this obedience walk in 2010 losing this stronghold in 2010 Food is NOT my master Jesus is -
ok now I shall go back to cleaning the kitchen!!
So hitting my knees more in 2010 - working on this obedience walk in 2010 losing this stronghold in 2010 Food is NOT my master Jesus is -
ok now I shall go back to cleaning the kitchen!!
Monday, January 04, 2010
drat
well I forgot another trustee meeting and I suppose since it is just now 7:30 I could probably still make and if it was warmer then say 15 degrees I might've BUT honestly I do not feel called to this position - I think I will be calling Pastor Dan tomorrow - to resign...
I have missed more meetings then I have hit - so really whats my point
So I guess I need to seek God on this and seek Him on where He wants me
I have missed more meetings then I have hit - so really whats my point
So I guess I need to seek God on this and seek Him on where He wants me
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