Busy Busy Busy...

I have been humming along busily these last few days getting my life and house in order along with a friends...


God is so awesome...He gives us gifts and talents as we need them in our lives to help ourselves and others .


Who knew I could be this person of organization ...LOL
bossy ..yes but helping others to organize their spaces...huh...

Like I said God is awesome!

Randomness....

Wow Scott and I sat talking about all this new year is going to bring...and not that we have a crystal ball or anything but facing some facts of life the boys are graduating and they will be 19 in Aug. I know those changes of them moving on are going to happen and it is not really catching me by surprise ...and some days I could help them pack their things frankly... but today ...tonight right now in the midst of Christmas memories and happiness and light ...it seems so hard to think on those things that are yet to come. 2009 IS going to bring big change in our lives in our family.

I lost 3.8 pounds in the last 10 days ...pretty amazing with the holidays then talking about changes and I so want to go stick my face in something sweet...so glad getting those temptations out of my sight out of my reach.

Christmas present's

Wow Christmas presents...presence.. It has been a wonderful Christmas- for all the chaos leading up to the feeling that I was running behind the not getting away with my sweetie to Brown County - over all it has been great.
Great memories with my kids great moments with family and now gearing up for a new year- a year for change--
changing ME which is funny because it seems like the last 6 years has been all about change.
God - Jesus so present in my life the changes He has wrought
(Wrought :1. Put together; created: a carefully wrought plan.
2. Shaped by hammering with tools 3. Made delicately or elaborately)
through counseling Bible Study and personal growth- amazing ..now it is time for the physical changes. This weight. I am tired . I carried the emotional weight for so many years and that is gone ..now it is time to shed the physical weight.
Can I do this? - oh no doubt with His presence in my life nothing is too hard or imposable.
2009 - number 9 is my favorite-- I declare 2009 to be my favorite year of all...what is yet to be is going to be terrific and wonderful -- oh it will be hard at times.. BUT this time next year I hope to be writing of the changes made in my physical body and hope that those changes match what has changed in my emotional mental body...

SO lets hear it for 2009!

Almost Christmas ....

I love Christmas ...it hasn't always been this way...

Christmas past where Christmas held such hope but produced little joy and lot's of dissappointment heartache and sadness. Split between 2 households never where I wanted to be -only where the courts dictated and parents decided.

Christmas present - Christmas mornings .....
I love being able to give others gifts that make them happy- I love my kids and want them to have great memories of Santa and surprises of opening boxes and finding just exactly what they wanted. Having stacks of presents to open .


yet now Knowing God as I do - seeing Jesus and what He has done in my life Should Christmas as it is now still be what I seem to have made it? Do my kids GET that this is about Jesus ? Not the presents not about Joy that mom and dad can give them but about the eternal Joy thru Jesus? Have I inadvertantly wreaked Christmas?

Something for me to ponder ....

Busy Dec.

wow got some of ...most of the shopping done I am thinking it seems so disorganized this year!!! LOL Of course I think I said that last year too!! How could it have been easier when the kids where so little and yet now they are mostly grown the shopping is so hard?? (this is said with a whine in my voice...LOL).
Jes went with me today that was fun..we had a great time.

Tonight was a true love waits ceremony for some of the teen girls at church. Jen is one of them it was very cool.



it has been such a crazy few months ..with Jens surgury and well just life in general with 2 18 yo boys...
I need to slow down ...slow WAYYYYYYYYYY down once again be still and know HE is God ....

facebook

my friend Shari got me to sign up for facebook and somehow the beast (facebook- not Shari!) got into my address book and emailed my world! YIKES now I got this boy scout man adding me to his facebook!! yikes yikes yikes!!! LOL

God is consistent and persistent

God is consistent and persistent! Why do I say this WElllll Of course God is consistent He never changes...so that is who He is and I like that about Him...He is persistent because He hasn't just taken His hands off me and walked away....WOW -He keeps getting my attention over and over about the things I am supposed to be doing. And it is with a heavy heart I must confess I have not been consistent or persistent in my tasks,
I am still trying to make this journey on my own without Him a lot of times and that is just stupid.
All the healing He has graced me with and I can even think I can do anything on my own without HIM...how stupid I am and God I am so sorry- And Lord I thank you for your persistent and consistent LOVE.

holiday pics....

Count Down to Thanksgiving.....

Well it is Monday Jenni is sleeping in there no school again today-
For me I need to get my lists going for Thursday and that blasted Turkey better be thawing!!
I do love Thanksgiving with family and food and just the warm fuzzies...I get from the bright warm orange colors!! LOL
Scott and the boys will take jens stuff back to her room so we will have use of the dining room...
hopefully she will be back tro school at least 1/2 days... tomorrow and wed.

OHHH and I ordered Photo shop cs3 ! it comes with cs4 free upgrade!! YEA! of course now will come the challenge of learning how to work it!!

I AM SO TIRED>>>>>>>>

oh my goodness thisis like when the babies where little! Up 3 times at night ...yikes... BUT tonight I am sleeping upstairs and Scott is taking the downstairs nursing shift I am gonna push for tonight AND Sat night!! LOL
Scott suggested I have Cher do Thanksgiving but I want to do it....it isn't THAT hard and I like tohe comfort of having it here.,
it isn't comfortable at other peoples houses.,..
ahhh well we have Owens Birthfday party tonight
I am making him a Mickey Mouse cake...
ok off ot get dressed and get Jen up and moving....she can't sleep at night yet lets see she has been asleep now since 5:45 a.m. alomsot 6 hours....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jen's feet

Wow Jenni's surgery it is tough watching her in pain...yesterday she almost passed out from the pain she got white as a sheet ---her face including her lips had NO color in them what so ever it was very scary almost called 911 but she came out of it -
last night it was rough one and today Sunday she has had toe pain and is now sleeping with meds. \

trying not to eat my worry my frustration my anxiety my inability to take her pain away

I got out of the house yesterday for a bit it was nice I miss going to Worship today - but she was supposed to get up and have a wash and hair washing but her pain was too much . I got my 1st place done and some quiet time with God and my book...so bonus

And best of all the sun is out! yeah!

busted by the dietitian....

busted by the dietitian today she so held on tight to what she knew and made me write down the stupid diet coke cake I ate....

me and food do not have the best relationship...ok thats a sentence the fact that I think you can have a relationship with food probably spells out just what the trouble is for me!

ok Lord please help me get past this living to eat and get to the eating to live .......

Mother Daughter conference

Wow what great speakers at the conference wish EVERY mom could hear some of the things we heard.

And the girls to say No to the Bozo --

Mostly that mom's are not to be their daughters Friends... and that is so hard - it does get easier tho as they get older...I feel my oldest Jes and I have a More mom/ friend relationship now-- of course she is out on her own and I am friend when she wants it and mom when she needs it seems like it is more about her wants and needs then my own but I am OK with that -- I got lots of friends it is nice to be on an even keel relationship with her!!! LOL

With Jen right now it is hard because she and I are in thr throes of her growing up years and I can no be her friend but it really makes me sad to see her being friends with other moms out there and I guess the difference is Jes was so anti social I don't remember her doing that where Jen has coaches and such that she gravitates towards. And because she is a great kid and sometimes mature in conversation and thinking they treat her as an equal ..kinda weird but seeing it happen and only getting a small piece of her occasionally well it is hard ..it is sad.. for me -- but I am trusting that because there are times she and I have fun and click ..that as she grows up we too will have a good relationship.

Hard

well this daily diabetic life sucks, I want to eat junk I want cake and candy and cookies...I sound like a 2 year old...
This last week has not been a good one for my eating I got away from writing stuff down and blam eating what I want and not what I need so my bad.,..

Didn't do the 1st place study daily and that's bad too...lets see today's verse I am to have memorized...
By faith Abraham went to a place he didn't know that was to be his inheritance and he went in faith?? obedience ..??? Heb 11 something...
ahhh Heb. 11:8 by faith Abraham when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance ,obeyed and went even though he did not know where he was going.
yeah,.,...
This weeks study is all about God doing the imposable and do I believe God can do the imposable like helping me with my self control ... About how Sarah laughed in the face of God doing the imposable Do we laugh when God wants to do the imposable thru us??
Does God think it is imposable for me to eat right and be healthy?? Nope if He did He wouldn't have led me to this first place Bible study--- So I guess it is time for me to quit laughing in Gods face and humble myself before Him and get help doing what IS imposable for me to do on my own...

Happy Birthday to me....

Owen and Auntie Missy at the party....

Well I am 48 ...and tired!! LOL
We had a surprise party for Susi mom yesterday (she and I share a birthday!) it turned out great.
But today I am so tired... I do not want to go swim but I need to go swim...I am starting to come down with a cold.. yuck....

I did do the Baily photo shoot it turned out great got some good shots for them .

Now we are gearing up to get Jens feet operated on ... So gotta get the house cleaned back up and things organized!

man it is ALWAYS something huh??

Brown County

it was an awesome weekend at our little place -
Scott is a little too serious about his pancake flipping !!



really it was a great time for our family and the weather was awesome!
now it is home to cold and windy!

I am shooting some senior pics for Adam and family pics for the Baileys

Hoping to get a new flash for my Birthday!

I will be 48 on Sunday

I am also hoping ot get my braces off soon!

And now I am off to spend some qiet time with The Lord.

He is so good and awesome and wonderful!

Got another wedding to shoot!

Jo is getting married in Dec! How cute is she!!

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Writing instead of eating...LOL

well the guys have all fixed pop corn and I am not REALLY hungry just it smells so darn good!

BSF tomorrow and teacher conferences

WED -wow a quandary I have Scott's niece and great niece and mom coming to dinner something we planned WAY before the wed. nite 1st place meetings... but now wed. nites are for first place we are in the beginings watching a DVD on the program... I REALLY want to visit with Nicole and Olivia but man I do not want to miss a meeting it 1st place is about committing to the program... sighhhhhh

ok well I guess I need ot pray about it huh? yeah...

heres a picture ....a cake I did for the orthodontist...no it isn't perfect but I KNOW it was good...and it looks good too!!LOL

figuring things out

today I was rejected and I wanted to eat... it wasn't a big rejection just a small subtle one but it was enough that before I identified the feeling I was already thinking how I was going to make this pumpkin spice bread and ice it with cream cheese icing... now that seems harmless enough I suppose this making of bread until you attach it to the feelings of rejection and BLAM you got an eating binge that would do harm to my newly lost 3#...sighhhhhh
that would bite.... LOL

Jesus is my everything He does not reject me therefore how can I be among the rejected??

I might still make the bread but not until it is closer to the time the boys and Scott get home so we can have it while we watch our shows.

God is so good --- all the time

Got a Group

Well last night was our orientation I think it is going to be good - I think most all of them have done it before-- me and Shari have not and we are the only ones not from that church SO it is kinda wierd -but hey we are all Sisters in Christ-so it is all good!

Tonight is Jenni's Tourney they play Franklin Central -
here is her picture on the court...