Count Down to Thanksgiving.....

Well it is Monday Jenni is sleeping in there no school again today-
For me I need to get my lists going for Thursday and that blasted Turkey better be thawing!!
I do love Thanksgiving with family and food and just the warm fuzzies...I get from the bright warm orange colors!! LOL
Scott and the boys will take jens stuff back to her room so we will have use of the dining room...
hopefully she will be back tro school at least 1/2 days... tomorrow and wed.

OHHH and I ordered Photo shop cs3 ! it comes with cs4 free upgrade!! YEA! of course now will come the challenge of learning how to work it!!

I AM SO TIRED>>>>>>>>

oh my goodness thisis like when the babies where little! Up 3 times at night ...yikes... BUT tonight I am sleeping upstairs and Scott is taking the downstairs nursing shift I am gonna push for tonight AND Sat night!! LOL
Scott suggested I have Cher do Thanksgiving but I want to do it....it isn't THAT hard and I like tohe comfort of having it here.,
it isn't comfortable at other peoples houses.,..
ahhh well we have Owens Birthfday party tonight
I am making him a Mickey Mouse cake...
ok off ot get dressed and get Jen up and moving....she can't sleep at night yet lets see she has been asleep now since 5:45 a.m. alomsot 6 hours....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jen's feet

Wow Jenni's surgery it is tough watching her in pain...yesterday she almost passed out from the pain she got white as a sheet ---her face including her lips had NO color in them what so ever it was very scary almost called 911 but she came out of it -
last night it was rough one and today Sunday she has had toe pain and is now sleeping with meds. \

trying not to eat my worry my frustration my anxiety my inability to take her pain away

I got out of the house yesterday for a bit it was nice I miss going to Worship today - but she was supposed to get up and have a wash and hair washing but her pain was too much . I got my 1st place done and some quiet time with God and my book...so bonus

And best of all the sun is out! yeah!

busted by the dietitian....

busted by the dietitian today she so held on tight to what she knew and made me write down the stupid diet coke cake I ate....

me and food do not have the best relationship...ok thats a sentence the fact that I think you can have a relationship with food probably spells out just what the trouble is for me!

ok Lord please help me get past this living to eat and get to the eating to live .......

Mother Daughter conference

Wow what great speakers at the conference wish EVERY mom could hear some of the things we heard.

And the girls to say No to the Bozo --

Mostly that mom's are not to be their daughters Friends... and that is so hard - it does get easier tho as they get older...I feel my oldest Jes and I have a More mom/ friend relationship now-- of course she is out on her own and I am friend when she wants it and mom when she needs it seems like it is more about her wants and needs then my own but I am OK with that -- I got lots of friends it is nice to be on an even keel relationship with her!!! LOL

With Jen right now it is hard because she and I are in thr throes of her growing up years and I can no be her friend but it really makes me sad to see her being friends with other moms out there and I guess the difference is Jes was so anti social I don't remember her doing that where Jen has coaches and such that she gravitates towards. And because she is a great kid and sometimes mature in conversation and thinking they treat her as an equal ..kinda weird but seeing it happen and only getting a small piece of her occasionally well it is hard ..it is sad.. for me -- but I am trusting that because there are times she and I have fun and click ..that as she grows up we too will have a good relationship.

Hard

well this daily diabetic life sucks, I want to eat junk I want cake and candy and cookies...I sound like a 2 year old...
This last week has not been a good one for my eating I got away from writing stuff down and blam eating what I want and not what I need so my bad.,..

Didn't do the 1st place study daily and that's bad too...lets see today's verse I am to have memorized...
By faith Abraham went to a place he didn't know that was to be his inheritance and he went in faith?? obedience ..??? Heb 11 something...
ahhh Heb. 11:8 by faith Abraham when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance ,obeyed and went even though he did not know where he was going.
yeah,.,...
This weeks study is all about God doing the imposable and do I believe God can do the imposable like helping me with my self control ... About how Sarah laughed in the face of God doing the imposable Do we laugh when God wants to do the imposable thru us??
Does God think it is imposable for me to eat right and be healthy?? Nope if He did He wouldn't have led me to this first place Bible study--- So I guess it is time for me to quit laughing in Gods face and humble myself before Him and get help doing what IS imposable for me to do on my own...

Happy Birthday to me....

Owen and Auntie Missy at the party....

Well I am 48 ...and tired!! LOL
We had a surprise party for Susi mom yesterday (she and I share a birthday!) it turned out great.
But today I am so tired... I do not want to go swim but I need to go swim...I am starting to come down with a cold.. yuck....

I did do the Baily photo shoot it turned out great got some good shots for them .

Now we are gearing up to get Jens feet operated on ... So gotta get the house cleaned back up and things organized!

man it is ALWAYS something huh??

Brown County

it was an awesome weekend at our little place -
Scott is a little too serious about his pancake flipping !!



really it was a great time for our family and the weather was awesome!
now it is home to cold and windy!

I am shooting some senior pics for Adam and family pics for the Baileys

Hoping to get a new flash for my Birthday!

I will be 48 on Sunday

I am also hoping ot get my braces off soon!

And now I am off to spend some qiet time with The Lord.

He is so good and awesome and wonderful!

Got another wedding to shoot!

Jo is getting married in Dec! How cute is she!!

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Writing instead of eating...LOL

well the guys have all fixed pop corn and I am not REALLY hungry just it smells so darn good!

BSF tomorrow and teacher conferences

WED -wow a quandary I have Scott's niece and great niece and mom coming to dinner something we planned WAY before the wed. nite 1st place meetings... but now wed. nites are for first place we are in the beginings watching a DVD on the program... I REALLY want to visit with Nicole and Olivia but man I do not want to miss a meeting it 1st place is about committing to the program... sighhhhhh

ok well I guess I need ot pray about it huh? yeah...

heres a picture ....a cake I did for the orthodontist...no it isn't perfect but I KNOW it was good...and it looks good too!!LOL

figuring things out

today I was rejected and I wanted to eat... it wasn't a big rejection just a small subtle one but it was enough that before I identified the feeling I was already thinking how I was going to make this pumpkin spice bread and ice it with cream cheese icing... now that seems harmless enough I suppose this making of bread until you attach it to the feelings of rejection and BLAM you got an eating binge that would do harm to my newly lost 3#...sighhhhhh
that would bite.... LOL

Jesus is my everything He does not reject me therefore how can I be among the rejected??

I might still make the bread but not until it is closer to the time the boys and Scott get home so we can have it while we watch our shows.

God is so good --- all the time

Got a Group

Well last night was our orientation I think it is going to be good - I think most all of them have done it before-- me and Shari have not and we are the only ones not from that church SO it is kinda wierd -but hey we are all Sisters in Christ-so it is all good!

Tonight is Jenni's Tourney they play Franklin Central -
here is her picture on the court...

First Place

Well I guess we start offically tomorrow Shari found a group starting wed nites...that is do-able-- I am excited! I am doing faily well with the diabetic diet thing and working VERY hard to put Jesus first in all things ...

make HIM my everything.,.. sad? I turn to Jesus - scared I turn to Jesus -- it isn't always easy not that it is a hard thing just not my habit! my habit is food people food...people --- not that I eat people ...LOL just It hasn't been my habit to make JEsus my everything
ok anyway thats my life.......LOL

nutrition.......

nutrition.... going to see a nutritionist today .hummm wonder what she's gonna say like maybe eat more veggies???
sighhhhhhhhhh why can't this be easy?? just this one thing....LOL
now I am whining what I am hearing in my heart is aww come on Kim look at how easy you have things...LOL
Somewhere there is some skinny girl who can eat what she wants yet is terrified of strangers ....LOL who takes herself and those around her too seriously and never has any fun.... well I hope she eats a chocolate bar for me!

learning the Lord's lessons

Submission- The Lord is the Lord of all or not Lord at all...

Submitting sounds so ...early caveman cave woman... BUT reality is -it is freedom! Being free to be who the Lord sees you to be -
It is being covered by His love and Grace in a whole new way
It is resting and trusting in Him in His love for the small details of our lives.

learning His lessons..have you ever had a time in your life where the Lord just keeps getting you the same message by all kinds of different avenues?? God is so GOOD!

Wilson...or the walmart price smiley ...

this is wilson having fun in the sun....

and here he is on the run...LOL


or it is the walmart price smiley on vacation!!

Frustrated

Wanting to start the first place Bible study.,.,.got the stuff but really need a strong group - praying that the Lord will put together a good group.
Where we are trying to do this the lady is very nice but....
Wow I have some big time doubts

wow

living a surrendered life I think I get it, Now it is living it - God is so awesome my heart is brimming over with His love for me for all of us really , I know He loves us all equally but I would like to think He has a special place for abused and neglected kids..

tonight I feel like a precious jewel of Gods...

tonight marks and ending and a beginning...

feeling badly

have you ever said something and then feel really bad ? of course everyone has... I just feel like I put my foot in my mouth with a friend and it wasn't my fault I just feel badly that she might have been hurt even if it was inadvertantly by me. I feel realllyyyy stupid

ughhaaruggggahhhh

ok now I gotta let it go right? RIGHT...sighhhhhhh

first place

Well Dave says : As far as your weight goes I believe it will not be an issue when you learn to take Jesus as your everything instead of using food to fill the need inside. You will then eat for sustainence rather than for emotional reasons.

I started weight watchers but just HATE points... HATE the group junk

Some friends have said first place~ first place ( thanks Mary ,Carol , Donna!)
everything in this last part of my healing jurney is leaning towards JESUS being FIRST PLACE in my life... DUH I am such a dork ---

We know this is truth- ( the Jesus thing NOT the dork thing!) I KNOW this is truth Jesus has to be first place -
SO starting the first place bible study ...Seems so much better then WW or even SB not sure about the whole calorie counting thing that seems hard but the scriptures I am underlining WOW

Nahum1 : 7 The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him,

Zechariah 4: So he said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,' says the LORD Almighty. msg Bible says :: Then he said, "This is God's Message to Zerubbabel: 'You can't force these things. They only come about through my Spirit,'

Humility Kim --- God has told me over and over I am nothing - humble myself I am not Him I can't be God not my god not my kids god nobodys god coz...I ani't GOD...

I can't do this only thru His Spirit can I do this back to John 15:5
I am the vine ....apart from Me you can do nothing -- the words of Jesus right there ...

ok well something I read today was just do the first right thing,,,, I think God wants me to do this - so I am doing the first right thing-