Homecoming

Here are the group of girls Jen went to homecoming with...

are they cute or what??!!

new BSF year

yea new BSF year I am excited tho obviously miss my old group but...sighhh the new group will be fun too...I am sure of it, coz God is good! He knows me...LOL and He loves me...

let's see it is the last photo class did I learn anything...yes...a little wish I had more time to have put more into the outta class stuff... don't feel like I will carry it in my brain long...LOL

DOF...PV...TV... f-stops... metering.... uggghh...with all thats going on in my world who can think....

ok well what eles ...

BSF thought of the week,,,,
if there is no conflict between what you read ( in Bible study) and hear ( in lecture or sermons at your church ) with how you are living then there is no truth in your study - God works thru His word there is thinking and changing going on in growth--
the TRUTH of scripture must bring change and growth.

WOW ...

parental heartbreak

heart is battered and bruised by the things they do
they do wrong while smiling and saying Jesus loves you
they sit in the church and hear all that is right and good
but then comes the girlfriends and not doing as they should
they laugh at your values snear at your rules
they sneak around like we adults are all fools
when did we lose those babies so sweet
the small little hands the sweet little feet?
why are they living like eternaity doesn't matter?

need to get my smiles back

make me laugh make me smile -- come on I dare ya...

There has been so much going on it weighs me down and frankly who needs to add weight??? NOT me -

I bought flowers for me and my sisters ( all three bouquets matched) ..they are so pretty

I am calling them sister flowers...

they are beautiful and full of life -love -and joy

and I hope they made them smile like they did me -

Rough week in kimville

it has been a rough week -God is good ALL THE TIME and things turned out ok- for me
I faced some things like death a 2ND time -- the first being my hysterectomy --for some reason that time I felt like I was looking at death --and then this week --with that tech and the bone scan-- wow -- I am not sure I want to "face" my death -- maybe going fast like Kristi in the accident is a better way then a long drawn out thing I guess God has it all under His control and He takes us when it is our time , So if this wasn't MY time then I know He does have a mighty plan to use what I have been thru for His kingdom work - it was a good test of not jumping ahead in my head and playing things out without putting God in the control seat- I had to keep the reigns on my emotions and reign in the fear and sadness... and lean on Him trusting Him --

Stuff...

Wow taking a photo class a fundamentals class starting next week -- I am pretty excited.. scared son't really know what my learning curve is - hope I can do this! Coz I want to -

here are pictures I took at the fair... they print out really crisp... not sure what the online conversion will do to them! CLICK ON THE PICTURE TO SEE IT BIGGER!

Jenni and Gracie

Lauren and Josh

Jeremy and Morgan

Jes and Eric

Scott and me

the midway

Goat

Cute little kids twin boys...and a sister

Loved the signs above their heads

the barn they moved from accross 38th street

My Jesus

.....taking His hand
..........feeling His strength
...............knowing His love for me
.......................trumps all .

Junk

there is lots of junk going on ...needing prayers

my Bible devotions today were Romans 8:28-38

28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose

And The Lord knows I love Him sooo it is all good right?

no matter what...

So this next week keeping my eyes focused on Him ...and not on what ails me ---

School is IN!

the last of the first day of school pics for my boys... Senior year--
and Jenni's first year of HS...wow -


Well summer is over the school year has began...
back into a schedule ....well sorta...LOL with Volleyball and band and practice and homework all for Jenni and then work and girlfriends for the boys,,,LOL that is about as normal as it gets... I guess...

it is nice to have my house back today finally....after the 1/2 days for the boys --and Jenni finally back in...

I am trying to get my foot taken care of get it fixed ,,,of course if it is arthritis then...well I hope there would be meds to make it easier to walk on!

Now it is on to getting the house cleaned and keeping it cleaned!!
at least while the kids are in school!!

sleep

Blessed sleep... in a house of teenagers it seems to be something elusive... I don't know why they say teenagers need the most sleep of anyone...I say teenagers MOM's need the most sleep of anyone.
last night didn't go to bed until midnightish then someone Jeremy was out of the house at 6 am -- he didn't get permission so now I am up grrrrrr

teenagers and toddlers I swear they are the same personalities...
my toddlers (the boys) never slept... they wanted to do it themselves (Independence) they talked among themselves often plotting things ( yup still doing that.) they fight over toys..( the truck and the gas in it is just a bigger toy)
Twin boys HA HA HA God... thanks so much ...

Restless - hungry

Restlessness fills my soul
hunger deep down gnawing a hole
like a junkie needing my next fix
I look through the cupboards for a healthy mix
of something sweet and something chewy
something chocolaty and gooey
But stopping myself in the knick of time
don't want to face the mother of all diet crimes
hiding and eating stuffing my face
eating things just for a taste
eating junk yet not filling me whole
when it is Jesus I need He is the food for my soul

starting over

I hate starting over...
it is awful....

So maybe I shouldn't look at it as starting over... maybe the Lord can give me a new attitude about it ,...

South Beach... yeah... I know I was doing weight watchers but darn it all I am not any good at counting points...

So back to the beach...even tho summer is almost over...LOL

I still have my SB chili it is in the freezer as we speak..read ..write...whatever... anyway I have been making that all along so it is just more work but not a lot more...
I can do this ... I lost what...65 pounds 71 ponds a few years ago and that was then when I was still dealing with a lot.,.,.SO now I think I can do it ...
but not alone...no never alone...only me and Jesus
He is my life guard on this beach!! LOL

OK so there I have made the public statement...
I am going to the beach and jumping in...ahhh Mon yeah Mon...LOL
no swimming tonight or Sun ...
OK ---

I can do this
Thru Him all things are possible...
right???

OUCH!

ok ok whatever ...SUNBURN is bad...sun screen is good....

yes that is the difference in my collarbone skin...ouch! I know stupid....

but it was so nice by the pool in the sun in the water the cool blue shimmery water.,.. no I don't seem very remorseful do I?? LOL I probably will later on tonight ...after this aloe aftersun junk wears off...man I hope I don't peel...the funny thing is the sun really makes my hair look whiter...LOL man I think I am too old for this!! LOL

sun shine addiction

I love the sun.,..I know I know it is bad thing to do ...with skin cancer and all but ...I love the sun... I have the choice to swim at the Benedictine center today OR go to Madeline's and swim...in the sun ... and swimming at Benedictine is really swimming like laps -- at Madeline's it is a 3 ft circle pool...OH it is big,,,but come one no real exercise.,.. but lovely sun....LOL

OK maybe I will do Benedictine and come home and do laundry then go to Madeline's... yeah maybe that will work.... LOL

to get my sun fix in the cool of the pool is awesome!!!

If I had been skinny I would probably be dead from skin cancer by now...
not that fat girls can't tan ...but I woulda probably pushed harder for a pool...of our own...and then of course a pool boy......

Our Fathers love is extravagant

Our Fathers love is extravagant
His Love is exceptional
His Grace is magnificent
the things He does for us is unimaginable in human standards He loved us before we even were - He loves the thought of us - think about that one... We love our children - our spouses but do we love unconditionally? Like HE does?

Here's a thought eyebrows....
Jenni and I went to Shari's for eyebrow waxing and Jenni was like wow eyebrows are weird these random patches of hair on our faces...how weird that God gave us these and Gracie was like yeah but Jen think how funny we look without them...

See God is extravagant to give us eyebrows...to brake up that whole expanse of skin between our eyes and our hairlines... it gives us in site into peoples moods their thoughts eyebrows up in surprise or furrowed down in anger - my dog even has eyebrows... think about that ...LOL
eyebrows....WOW..........LOL

anxious

inside I feel all anxious - tense
feeling like I have caused offense
shoulders and neck all knotted and tight
inside I am getting ready for a fight
I need to rely on Jesus - my Lord
That on Calvery His blood poured
To give me freedom from the chains that bind
to remenber I have left all of THAT life behind

are you in the 83% or the 17% ??

How do people survive without Jesus? How do people with Jesus commit the acts that they do and call themselves Christian?
the news just had a report that "Nearly across the board, the majority of religious Americans believe many religions can lead to eternal life: mainline Protestants 83 % belive that there are many ways to heaven... read the whole story....http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,370588,00.html

ok mainline protestants... thats most of all whom I know ...that means those 83 % are not going to heaven
you gotta believe that Jesus is who He said He was ...and what He said is truth to call yourselves a Christian .... our pastor preached on this report and how in Numbers 13 & 14 (read it for yoyrself...) --12 went out to look at the Land that God --GOD mind you had promised them and only 2 Josh and Caleb came back with a good report like hello ...God sent them out to see this -- God said it is good who ARE these people who don't think God is right?? well all but 2 felt like God couldn't be right that they knew better and as it ended up only 2 got to see the new land hummm is this a lesson for us ---in the math world (so Pastor Dan preached...) these 2 from 12 = 17%...so that means 83% believed something else about the Land God had given them....and they ended up not getting to live there... Sounds to me like History is repeating its self...So question remains where are you? Are you in the 83% that thinks there are many ways to heaven or the 17 % that believes Jesus is the only way?? makes for a startling revelation that Heaven aint gonna be so crowded...

freedom

Today is 4th of July Freedom day.. for America -
yet Christ set us free already! Don't get me wrong I love the freedom we have in America I couldn't imagine being -living anywhere else ...(hello lots to be said for our wonderful flushie toilets as opposed to holes in the floor...!)
but it hit me last night watching the fire works at BG park ... they were awesome and in my mind they were linked to Christ setting me free.

John 8:34Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. 35Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. 36So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
isn't Jesus AWESOME! what He did for us -I think the fireworks shoukd be for Him!

I am so thankful for what our soldiers have done in getting our country's freedom I am sad at how we use it -- the sinful life that we live how we support sin with our tax dollars like abortions ect..So while our Country is free from tyranny we are still a country that is enslaved in sin.

So tonight if you are watching fireworks or next time you see a big show -- when it gets to the grand finally think of what Jesus did for us and say WOW! Thank you Jesus -

Dentists

dentists - dentistry - drills - shots -pain - hands in your mouth -mind numbing fear- people with masks breathing down -eyes of compassion- eyes of determination to get the job done- cold bloody water seeping down your throat- rinse- spit- terror - madness - can't breathe -gotta leave -splitting
or
holding Jesus hand -feeling His strength -seeing His compassion His Love his Mercy to stand in the gap for me - peace - calm - breathing - He is here with me in me He is my strength He is my everything,.peace

Happy Anniversary...23 years

This is Scotts Fav picture of me in the dress...the morning of our wedding at my Dad's I had only been up a few minutes Susi -mom wanted me to put on the dress...So here it is I remember I didn't even have my contacts in totally blind!! LOL

Scott and Me....

ok Wow I know I look very different! LOL it is the hair right>????

there are some funny things here... Scott had his beard and all but the week before our wedding he shaved it off! I was like whatttttttttt?? Anyway his reasoning was he might not have it when we had kids and how confused they would be... LOL He has not been without it since!

And my dress it was a wedding dress rental ...it was all vail and dress

$ 65.00 and we ended up getting top keep it because the gal had sold the shop and they didn't want the inventory... I remeber I wore a size 13 and the dress tho was an 18 I was a bit mad about that! but when she zipped the 16 I thought the zipper was gonna blow!! $65.00 ..WOW considering my niece spent $900.00 on a dress...well her dad did....LOL

ok well 23 years.. I wish I had the same body but am glad I am not the same person. peoples... LOL

Amazingly exceptional....

God is amazingly exceptional
My mouth can not speak the Love I have for Him
My eyes can not take in the Glory of Him
My heart explodes with Love for Him
My hands ache to be at work for Him
My ears long to hear these words from Him
Well done good and faithful servant.
ks2008
This day I am full of wonder at all He does for us ...

God is never average but always exceptional...
As Christians shouldn't we follow His example of excellence
and STOP being average???

BE STILL AND KNOW....

How many times do you have to break

before you are fully broken?

How many faces does repentance take

before it becomes a mere token ?

How many times do you have to hear the words

before you realize it is God who has spoken?

BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD...say's He....

how cute is this??

the boys and the girlfriends went to Kings Island yesterday got this picture taken...I just love that they the boys dressed alike........
Click on picture to make it bigger..
Jeremy -Morgan -Lauren- Joshua

letting go of the control

So what Do we control anyway??
not much I am thinking So why do we try and hold on to it (control) so tightly? Our fingers wrapped securely white knuckled at times around something that is an illusion CONTROL - like smoke and mirrors it looked one way until the smoke clears and you find you are seeing something else.
This illusion of control is in so many areas of our lives and reality we can control very little - this last couple of weeks here in Indy there has been storms & tornado's we can not control the wind there are people who do not live in flood plane areas yet are in 5 foot of water how do you control the wind or the rain?? We do not - only God does... and children we raise them up we teach them whats right and whats not - yet they walk out the door pretty as you please and do what it is they want to do with little regard to your "control" over them SOOO why do we even think we have control ? How do you just let go release those fingers one by one and laying back in the knowledge that God is in control .

fire sky & Jesus

pretty purple and orange sky.............

thought Jesus was coming - seriously went out listened for the trumpets ....

no trumpets no Jesus on the clouds just orange fire sky....

back to work Christians ...

thoughts

well after swimming 53 miles I got a swim lesson today I told the life guard I won't probably ever learn Spanish and I grew up as a swim rat and I have never been able to do the water breathing/not breathing thing as a swimmer always had to hold my nose to go under once under I am good to go it is just getting there ... and the swimming across I keep my head up outta the water not so efficient ...
well today I started it I still can't quite do both as in swim and keep the breathing in and not not breathing in 1/2 the pool! ...but hey I did do it a few times and I didn't die whooo hooo!

the sky is dark and cloudy and my brain is too
my heart is full of cloudy gloomy rumblings

I feel moody and dark and want to live in an old Victorian house above the crashing sea..with 10 cats (keeping in mind that I don't particularly even LIKE cats!) and a wood burning fireplace and books to read and chocolate cake to eat . nobody comes except the grocer boy to bring mail and supplies...of course I would get no mail coz I would be that crazy lady up on the cliffs in the old Victorian mansion

been typing some lessons some teachings and such and not getting some of the principles . like life doesn't revolve around me well duh and why not?? LOL I do love Jesus life revolves around Jesus and I don't get in that ever so practical way HOW I am not supposed to get involved emotionally in life when life involves my emotions...where do you draw the line at it isn't your fault? And admit when it is?

unaltered life can be so confusing... good but confusing...are you confused yet?

June 2, 08 ~ lovin Jesus

Can I just say here that I love Jesus??
Seriously ...He is awesome and the grace and the love that He shows us His compassion and mercy is tremendous...
typing up some notes and well all I can say is wow thank you Jesus.

I see the world and it's craziness
I sometimes join in I must confess
my heart grieves for the things I do & see
My soul yearns for the day it will be free
away from this world full of darkness and sin
the day my soul joins with Jesus is the day true life begins!

it's not right to be not right...

Jenni - Lauren -Anna -Alex -(kindergarten play )

it's not right to be not right...
that would have had a whole different meaning to me 5 years ago... out of pride I ALWAYS wanted to be right (and hey I usually was ...LOL) now tho it is about being right with God-- with Jesus Christ my Savior and Redeemer - this world thinks so totally different about stuff. do what you want do what feels good live for the now ... you are your own inner light bla bla bla sometimes I think we have tumbled into the Land of OZ only to find Oprah behind the curtain. of course being a mom is like being in OZ most days all in the same day I am the wicked witch enforcing the rules - the good witch who makes everything right when it is all going wrong -the scare crow who needs a brain coz everyone knows we parents know nothing -the cowardly lion afraid to face whats next the tin man who needs a heart surly anyone with a heart knows that boyfriends should spend 24/7 with the girl friends... and Dorothy who just wants to tap her heels and go home where there is warm cookies and cold milk she didn't have to get for herself. and an Auntie Em to wash the plate and cup...

being right with the Lord...ahhh now that is golden.. the emerald city all shiny and at it's best - it is that great big lolly pop from the lolly pop kids.. it is Cotton candy flowers and chocolate rivers... humm now it is sounding more like willy wonka... anyway

God is God and I am not...could be my first tattoo...

I may be going to School ... but I haven't checked with the Lord if that's what He is thinking... after my being off course I am thinking I better sit back on course for a min before seeking His wisdom on it., BUT make no mistakes it will be HIS wisdom I seek before I jump I still don't feel like He would bless anything I would do right this min with so much still left to wrap up ..
typing and such..

and here's a random thing I miss my poetry-- Lord could I have that one back?? maybe without the pain?
I need to find that ONE thing I do well and explore doing it.
Oz.the land of OZ where things are not always as they seem. ...watch out for the peddler guy with all his wears in the back of his wagon to distract you and watch out for those those evil flying monkeys......

my kids... Love them!

wedding pictures

wedding pics...

the bride takes the groom is the name of the first one...LOL
and then watch for the ringbearer sound asleep...LOL

Wedding pictures

These are my favorites...post 1

Wow

on Thursday my baby girl graduates 8th grade... pretty darn exciting! And sad... lets see besides being busy with all the stuff for graduation I was the main photographer at Chrissys wedding - I will post some of those pics .
I am worn out. It has been a whorl wind month starting with the mini and ending with graduations.. class trip and wedding in the middle. It is a wonder I still have my sanity left...uh I do have it I am just not sure where I have placed it!!
Tomorrow is the cougar walk - we walk to Garfield park then ater that I have girls coming back to the house until time to get nails done -then Thursday is 1/2 day and the 8th graders all go out to lunch then I have girls coming here to do hair and make up - Thursday night is graduation -Jenni is Valdedictorian and Fri is her last day at Emmaus-- we have been there 18 years! (Jes started at age 3 ) There is going ot be a video at graduation which is gonna make us all cry... Jenni wont let me read her speach - I think I am gonna need lots of prayers to make it thru!

8th grade Class Graduation Pictures...

the night before the race.,,,,

Keep your eyes on the Prize....

there it is folks the real reason to walk 13.1 miles...

I am excited ...I am terrified.... I want to say forget it ...I want to say get outta my way ....

Today I am getting everything for the weekend ready food...clothes ... epson salt... advil and ... a heavy arsonal of prayer!!

I am off to go swim at least a 1/2 mile