life is fine

Really you know sometimes you get to such a place where life is just fine. It's not great~ it's not bad~ it is just fine. I am not one to usually use such a bland word like FINE... I tend to want and seek the dramatic side of things but today in this moment with the sun shining out my window and the wind softly blowing thru the trees I know in my heart of hearts that FINE is the exact wording I need. And I am ok with that. I have been sharing a lot of my story here lately to people and trying to become more comfortable with it. It is hard sometimes. I also am seeing sensing anyways that God is getting ready or getting me ready to leave this wilderness...it is time to pick up pack up and go forth into His promised land - where I will be able to help others with what I have learned wondering in this dessert. And that scares me because I think WAIT STOP! I've not learned anything not nearly enough ! And it saddens me because I think of the time I have squandered here not doing what I could have been to advance my lessons . Yes today life is fine . And I am ok with that.