Thinking

I was thinking I need to do my 100 things again since I started this a few years ago maybe things have changed..maybe I have changed...no that's sill of course I have changed!!


my life is so much saner ... I am so much saner. is saner ever a word? I mean if you can be insane then surly you can be saner...
LOL

The holidays are coming ...maybe saner is not a good thing around the craziness of family-- Mt sisters hubby has decided he is done with the marriage ...I guess he has been tossing this around in his head for a few months and now well last week he decided to act on it - yesterday was Owens 5th birthday...happy birthday to him I know there is never a good time to break off a marriage but seriously right NOW? I want to thump Brad in the head...but maybe it will be better for the bigger boys since Brad didn't always treat them fairly .

heres how i feel about divorce,...and step dads...

My Step-Monster
Pain anger and hurt are racing through my head
As the memories of you fill me with dread
The yelling and the torture that you put us through
Does it ever bother you?
You were larger than life at the end of a bad day.
A little, little man who had to have his way
Did I salt the potatoes? Did I hang your shirts up right?
Was the sweeper run correctly? If not there was a fight
You hit with your fists, but your words hurt just as bad
We could always tell by the air if you were coming in mad
Hide – make me smaller trying to keep out of your sight
Listening and wondering if it was time to take flight
Out of the room or out of executive control
Out – just get out – anyway I could go
My mom just stood by and let you make me your prey
My mom just stood by and I was the one to pay
To pay the price of your anger, the price of your rage
The damage you did I am just beginning to gage
You were a bully of women and children of that I am sure
I know I will get past you – of you I will be cured
Be gone little man – get out of my head
Good bye little man of you I have no more dread.~~~
KS©2009