I know faith facts feelings is how I am to base my life...not lead with the feelings thing ...but that is so hard. right now my feelings are shook up stomped on and broken - . I feel like all that I have done these last 10 years is for naught . my boys are living worldly lives so what was / is the point.
I have done well in the weight loss but this last week I have slid backwards not giving into the feelings and eating them
Jeremy moving out so abruptly was like ripping my heart in two- yet it was fast ...Josh on the other hand is like slowly bleeding to death he is just this side of respectful yet I feel like he is already gone mentally emotionally he is gone. And that hurts.
this is February... little over 3 more months of this...
I know it is hard for him with his brother gone --
my head is full of thoughts that can't be spoken -- just keep renouncing those thoughts... it is a spiritual battle being played out here as well as the daily one.
I know I will get thru this ............
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